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mind and self-consciousness interfered with the healing process. I began to be concerned with whether or not I was doing it right, rather than focusing on being helpful. "Let's see . . . does this hand go here now? Where is my other hand supposed to be if I'm standing on this side? . . . Oh, dear, let me look at the book again."
It occurred to me that I'd never studied healing before the "gift," or compulsion, originally appeared. I realized that whatever I had been doing previously  without any study or teaching  was more effective for me than anything I had learned since I began studying. Once again, it was difficult for me to part ways with logical systems and techniques, because I very much wanted someone else to be able to tell me the right way to do healing. However, I returned to relying on my own sensations and intuition to guide me. Once again I was free from books and memorizing, but now I began to encounter my own fears and limiting beliefs about the extent to which this healing "energy"  with me as a channel  could be effective.
Noncontact Healing Turns Out to Be More Effective Than Laying on of Hands
By this time, I had experienced a significant amount of distancing by friends and family from this "different Jane" who had returned from her year in Asia. It was painful for me. I quit talking to others about my experiences with healing. I decided it was important for me to move away from the people with whom I had formerly sought social support and approval. I wanted anonymity to explore my spirituality and the healing potential.
I moved to Eugene, Oregon, and taught healing through the Theosophical Society, as well as through a private organization. I took no payment for the healing interactions I participated in, since I never understood what was occurring, nor knew what was going to happen. Therefore, I have supported myself financially with other jobs. I am always curious as to the outcome of each healing encounter, and I approach each of them as experiments. Otherwise, I would never have the confidence to practice healing.
During that time in Oregon, I offered healing spontaneously to friends

 
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