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where I was. His chair was facing a fantastic color organ that he had constructed, which generated a variety of stimulating colors in syncopation with music coming through his earphones. There were electrodes attached to his wrists, and I could tell, from the fairly even recording of his GSR that was within my view, that he was very skilled at maintaining a relaxed state during the control and rest periods.
A computer-generated noise signaled to me when to start and stop trying to influence Braud. There were 30-second intervals of either influence or control times, which were randomly interspersed between 120-second rest periods. Those rest periods were most welcome! I was amazed at how much effort I put forth, very intently trying to arouse him, silently, with my mind.
Back then, I believed I needed to work very hard to excite someone from a distance. I broke out in a sweat, as the intensity of my effort would build And then, after thirty seconds of strenuous concentration, I was to break off all connection with him, instantaneously. That was the most difficult task of all! For that, I tried all sorts of tactics, such as reciting the alphabet backwards to myself, in various rhythms, while I tried to pat my head and rub my tummy in a different rhythm, alternating directions clockwise and counterclockwise, while I marched around the room. If anyone had observed my antics, it would probably have been very entertaining.
I tried many different strategies to alarm, excite, startle, or bother him, as I continuously checked the instrument recording his reactions to learn which tactics were most effective. Writing about it now, I can understand how an experienced and effective stage actor, as was the Soviet psychic Nikolaev, would be successful at evoking and projecting such emotions to another person. It was difficult for me to self-monitor my "connectedness" to Braud, while simultaneously trying to startle him. I rarely feel highly angered or stressed, so it was unfamiliar for me to engender such intense feelings of arousal and agitation within myself. The experimental task did not at all resemble the peaceful, blissful feeling I was used to experiencing from connecting with people in healing interactions.
Overall, the experiment was successful. Now I know that the quality

 
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