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Anonymous
so weird. I'm PMSing.. But I feel so weird. I feel like a ghost most of the time. I feel like I just float through life and I don't really care. I mean, I care, but I don't even pay attention to anything without some sort of electrical impulse.
I wish it was warm outside. I wish I had a car. I wish I had at least one good friend that I could see in person.
But, it takes time and effort to make a GOOD friend. I can't just automatically be a person's best friend because I feel like then it's based on shallow things. It's based on only good experiences, and you don't completely know the person. You don't know a person until you see the person at their worst, best, and everything in between.
I feel like, when I finally make a good friend there's only so much time before that fades away and the cycle starts all over again. So I always think, what's the point? I feel like that has always happened to me but lately I haven't made any good friends in my actual life off the internet. I also feel like I have little in common with a lot of people my age, especially girls. I just really want a good friend, but I think I'm always so afraid to put myself out there that I might give off a vibe that I don't really like anyone, even though I'm really nice to everyone.
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