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Anonymous
Hello /b/. I decided I am going to kill myself tomorrow.
No, this is not copypasta. And no, i am not 'teh emo lol'. I just decided, in a philosophical sense, my life does not matter. I'm not lonely, i have friends that care, a girlfriend that cares.. no I am not bad looking.. 5'9 weighing in at 155 pounds. I don't know.. i feel like life doesn't matter. tomorrow, i am going to class.. telling people whom i wish I took time to meet that I wish I took time to meet them.. and yes, i am driving to the ocean, taking sleeping pills, and swimming till I can't swim anymore. Maybe there is another sufficent way.. a gun, a bag over my head, etc... but this way I feel is a way I would want to go.. drowning with ocean life.. drowning with what matters most.... the earth. I dont know.. i just feel like i dont matter. Why do any of us matter? I am sick of this life. I dont want to become a millionare, i dont want to become what society tells me to become. What is there to do? I don't know.. death seems like the only (and simplist) answer. Yes, maybe I am selfish, and yes, i am taking the easy way out. But who truly isn't selfish? Who truly isn't taking the easy way out?
Being a philosophy major has just made me even more depressed.. im sick of this. Tommorrow... it's me, a bottle of vodka, and a bottlefull of sleeping pills. I'm not lying, im not joking... i just want to tell /b/, where I can be anonymous and unobserved. I am done with this life. I am through. I don't want to become a drone, and I dont want to become somethign trying NOT to be a drone. I just want to be me, and that seems impossible at this day and age.
I am through with this life.
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