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Anonymous
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I very rarely get excited about anything and I have very little motivation. I'm convinced I'm doing the wrong thing with my life, I regret a lot of my decisions (such as getting in debt quite young) and to be quite honest, I dislike myself as a person.
Most people who know me describe me as funny, adorable and sweet person who goes out of their way to help others. And this is true. But I don't feel worthy of anything.
I have constant anxiety and feel threatened by everybody who is the same sex as me. It's absolutely fucking ridiculous because I love people. I'm a people watcher.
I just feel so full of hate and misery at the moment that I hate everybody else.
I want to be the happy, positive, carefree person that I appear to be but I just can't be.
So my question is, /fit/....what can I do about it?
Therapy frightens me, medication scares me even more. But at the same time, I can't deal with this. I should be enjoying life.
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