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Schizophrenic? Anonymous
I'm not completely sure if this is the right board to post this in, but I think I have Schizophrenia.

It started about 3 months ago when I started to hear clicking. Clicking like..if you twist the cap on a medicine bottle, you get that clicking. I'd hear it for 5-10 minutes at a time, usually when I'm working. I didn't happen when I was at home, so I thought I was stressed at work. That happened for about 2 weeks..then I started hearing it at home. I wasn't worried, until I started to see what I saw. They're like people, but completely blacked out, like a shadow. Just a black mass that's shaped like a person, and their eyes are bright white. They have no other physical features that are visible to me. I usually see 4 at a time. They're not threatening or anything, they just follow me around. At home they'll be scattered around the room, and if I approached them, they fade away like..smoke? Like you can see your breath. Just recently the voice that is my conscience has changed to a voice I wasn't familiar with, until those figures started to talk to me. It's their voices, they all have the same voice.

They've only told me to do things that I wanted to do myself, like go get something to eat, or go to the bathroom, or change the channel on the tv. I'm not sure if I'm schizophrenic or if those are just a physical manifestation that my brain is making me see that is my conscience. I don't get anxious, I don't have crazy thoughts that I've never had.

So, can you diagnose me?
>> Anonymous
lol idk

ask /x/
>> Anonymous
You're crazy.
>> Anonymous
That's not healthy, man
>> Anonymous
go to a psych and get some anti psychotics
>> Anonymous
>>453336
I don't want to. It'll cost so much money, and I don't want to be labeled a "freak".
>> Anonymous
I want this to happen to me.
>> Anonymous
Are yous ure your getting enough dairy in your diet?
>> Anonymous
judging from your dialect you are closer to 20 than like 50. because If youwere closer to fifty you could have had a stroke, and be haveing visual cortex seizures. I
>> Anonymous
>>453348
You're exactly right, I'm 20.
>> Anonymous
Depression lately? Anyone in the family have similar neurological problems?
>> Anonymous
>>453355
No and no. It just started to happen, and that's really the only thing that worries me. I haven't told anyone yet though.
>> Anonymous
How about drugs or alcohol?
>> Anonymous
>>453370
Nope. I'm a bit of a nerd, and have a poor social life, haha. But I rarely drink, and I've smoked weed a few times, but that was about 2 years ago, so nothing recently.

They're right here watching me type. The closest they come to me is about 4 feet, just out of arms reach.
>> Anonymous
You're definitely having at least a schizophrenic episode.

It may go away in time. But, it may also get worse. There is no shame in seeking help. This is a debilitating and life-threatening disorder, only a fool would do nothing about it at this point.
>> Anonymous
Masters student psychology here (not clinical though). What you descripe are textbook schizophrenia symptoms. Most patients develop it in there late teens or early twenties, so that fits too.

Seriously, make an oppointment with a psychiatrist, or clinical psychologist. There is good medication and cognitive treatment out there. It might not get any worse, but if you don't do something there is a chance you'll end up pretty fucked up in the head.
>> Anonymous
>>453383
Yeahh. I don't really want to get help, but I know I'll have to if it keeps up though.
>> Anonymous
do some squats and it will stop
>> Anonymous
if you don't want to go to psych, just try to talk yourself out of it. you're essentially dreaming while awake. the voices are of your own making. its like when you're dreaming and talking to someone. even though it seems like you're listening to someone else talk, its really just you. try to get control of it like in a lucid dream.
>> ­
lol, you can't simply talk yourself out of schizophrenia, it's a mental illness caused by chemical imbalences in the brain.

You can't talk yourself out of AIDS either.
>> Anonymous
>>453388
>>453408
Thanks for the advice. I'll weigh my options
>> Anonymous
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>>453421
show us proof that there are chemical imbalances in the brain before drugs, k thanks
>> Anonymous
They're now starting to use their arms. Before they just kept them at their wastes, but now they're like, flexing their hands and stuff.
>> Anonymous
>>453421
I was hoping to do that. Oh well.
>> Anonymous
try to get a handjob
>> Anonymous
For everyone who did give me info, thank you very much.
>> Anonymous
In my opinion, the best thing to do would be to talk to your doctor. If it is schizophrenia, waiting could really mess you up in the head.

If not, maybe you could do something like talking to the figures and making them your new best friends.
>> Anonymous
>>453460
I've tried. If I try to make conversation with them, they close their eyes and the brightness goes away. Well, 3 out of the 4 do. The one that doesn't is the one that farthest away, and that one just stares at me.
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453322

Just accept them, they're here to help. If they tell you stuff you don't want, you'll never forget to eat or whatever. Make friends with them, they seem nice.
>> Anonymous
wow welll if your serious it sounds ALOT like schizophrenia...i would suggest going and seeing a psychiatrist... asap
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453466

He's just shy, offer him a drink or something.
>> Anonymous
>>453475
Haha, I wish it were that simple. They do watch tv though. Well, at least they sit facing towards it.
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453479

Give them names
>> Anonymous
>>453481
What if that upsets them?
>> Anonymous
Become the supervillain "Shadow-master", and tear through your enemies with the help of your shadow minions!

... seriously though; get some help - I've had a mild depression, and I didn't really want to get help either. But once the pills started working i could suddenly see how irrational I'd been acting.
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453483

Then tell them to either give a name for you to call them or to accept your name. Don't take shit from these guys alright
>> Anonymous
>>453486
They laughed. Seriously, they've never laughed before.
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453491

Ever tried to take pictures of them? Take pics and see if they tag themselves @ facebook
>> Anonymous
>>453491
As hilarious etc. as Sponge is, he's not really any help.
Trying to talk to your own hallucinations is not a better idea than GOING TO A DOCTOR.
>> Anonymous
>>453501
at least attempting to fix solutions on your own is always better than asking for help because you've failed.
>> Anonymous
>>453532
Except the only way to fix SCHIZOPHRENIC HALLUCINATIONS is through medication.
3/10
>> Anonymous
>>453496
fuck off sponge
>> Anonymous
A beautiful mind

HE didn't need medication

Also, and I'm sure many agree, I'm terribly jealous of you OP

Do you still hear clicking?
>> Anonymous
>>453538
show us proof that drugs fix chemical imbalances in your brain
>> Anonymous
sponge is a troll, stop listening to him OP he's just fucking with you.
>> Anonymous
Have they ever moved physical objects in your surrounding area?
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>I wasn't worried, until I started to see what I saw. They're like people, but completely blacked out, like a shadow. Just a black mass that's shaped like a person, and their eyes are bright white. They have no other physical features that are visible to me. I usually see 4 at a time.

You sure you didn't just walk into KFC or something
>> Anonymous
>>453322
You realize many people pay for the effects that you're getting for free.

Quit bawwing.
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453579

don't you just fucking hate freeloaders
>> Anonymous
i read that about 1 percent of the population has schizophrenia... thats seems really high. whats up with that?
>> Anonymous
It does sound like you at least had some sort of schizophrenic episode, but the fact that you can recognize that the figures are in fact stemming from your own mind is very good. People with full-blown schizophrenia truly believe there are others who control their thoughts and actions.

Please talk to a therapist. There's absolutely no shame in seeking help, so please remember that.
>> Anonymous
>>453584
YES

I want imaginary friends that actually talk to me too ;_;
>> Anonymous
Fellow schizophrenic here. You really should go talk to someone. I didn't want to either and it just got worse and worse until I did. The meds help a lot even though there was a rougher patch when I first started taking them. It's worth it in the long run. I don't think I could be a functioning member of society anymore if I hadn't gotten put on something.
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453620

pseudo aspy kid sighted
>> Anonymous
>>453629
haha no. I'm not socially inept at all. A tad quiet from remembrance of the bad schizophrenia days when I'd occasionally answer questions no one had actually asked, but other than that, perfectly normal. Well, as normal as one can be when they hear things and on rare occasions see things that aren't there.
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453638

shut up you don't have schizophrenia
>> Anonymous
go get sum help brah
>> Tongue !IxFCNj8vog
>>453640
Shut up, Sponge.
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453647

shut up, tongue
>> Anonymous
>>453640
Are you the resident troll around here? I'm new to /fit/ so I wouldn't know. I happened to be on the front page and noticed the link to this thread there.

Anyway OP, you have my experience now and I hope you'll listen to my advice. This episode might end on its own but there's likely to be another in the future and they'll just get worse and worse. Medication doesn't work for everyone but it does for most and there's no shame in seeking it.
>> Anonymous
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?
>> Tongue !IxFCNj8vog
>>453648
Shut up, Sponge.
>> Anonymous
There's no reason not to go to a doctor. If you're worried about people's perception of you, schedule an appointment with a doctor you've never seen before.

It's important that you get on it early. It'll only become more challenging to make it to the doctor's office if your hallucinations become really bad.
>> Anonymous
>>453648
>>453654
Shut up Sponge and Tongue.
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453658

Shut up Anonymous
>> Tongue !IxFCNj8vog
>>453658
I agree with Sponge. Shut up Anonymous!
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
Shut up dark figures
>> Anonymous
>>453658
Shut up Anonymous.

Oh wait...
>> Tongue !IxFCNj8vog
>>453668
Shut up, Sponge!
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453670

Shut up Tongue
>> Anonymous
>>453673
>>453670
>>453669
>>453664
>>453660
>>453658
>>453654
>>453648
>>453647
>>453640
YOU GUYS ARE RUINING MY LIFE
skimpy made me say that
>> Tongue! !IxFCNj8vog
>>453673
Shut up, Sponge!
>> Anonymous
>>453679
I fucking lol'd.

I want Schizophrenia, that shit sounds hilarious.
>> Tongue! !IxFCNj8vog
>>453679
Awesome, you named him!
>> Anonymous
>>453322
what you are seeing isn't unreal, we call them cloacks they're the shadowy creatures that flow to this dimension from underworld.

The shadows mean that they can't completely cross over to this reality so this would mean they're after your body because they need the physical mass it represents.

To dealing with them use alot of sea water salt and make circles with it to where you sleep they can only do something to you when you aren't consciouss.

Keep fighting brother!
>> Anonymous
>>453701
Follow this good mans advice, and you should be fine.
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453701

couldn't have said it better than myself
>> Anonymous
>>453701
skimpy says you're wrong
hes here to protect me
but from what???
this is wrong,i need help
>> Anonymous
>>453711
>>453711
Yeah, but seriously. Go to a doctor now.
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453710

that didn't make much sense did it
>> Anonymous
>>453701
Kinda right but fails.

They are real. You can't see more of them because you aren't completely developed yet. You are becoming something great op. Enjoy the transformation.
>> Tongue! !IxFCNj8vog
>>453721
Shut up, Sponge!
>> Anonymous
>>453721
>>453739
Shut up Sponge and Tongue.
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>453728

Shut up voodoo man
>> Tongue! !IxFCNj8vog
>>453742
Shut up, anonymous!
>> Anonymous
>>453728
Don't listen to this fellow he's obviously a lost sould the cloacks have taken him you can see it from the praise he raises for the "transformation" we are watching beyond your eyes for the truth -Watchlings-

One good defence is to meditate try to clear your mind and shut everything down this way you could possibly cut the mental connection they're making to you..whatever you do don't listen to what they're saying.
>> Tongue! !IxFCNj8vog
What names did you give the other ones?
>> Tongue! !IxFCNj8vog
>>453743
Shut up, Sponge!
>> Anonymous
get doctars
get meds
stfu

alternately, start smoking lotsa weed
>> Anonymous
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Ring wraiths. Be careful.
>> Anonymous
if you open your mind and let them in, they will lend you their power
>> Anonymous
I think this is your answer.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bDv4LNzBCyw
>> Anonymous
>>453755
Skippy its the only one that talks back when i speak to him
the others just stare at me.
so im not ill then?transformation?
>> Godspeed You! Chinese Communist !!VKHtgYbiSfh
ITT: Probably not OP -__-.
>> Anonymous
You know your life sucks when your hallucinations ignore you.
>> Anonymous
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=45pZyomwsns
>> Anonymous
>>453785
>Godspeed You! Chinese Communist
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! FUUUUUUUUUUCK!!

YOU MADE MY DAY
>> Anonymous
>>453786
so true haha
>> Anonymous
>>453754
And this fellow tells you to meditate as though that will do anything and is nothing more than masturbation but doesn't give any more specifics. The watchlings are part of a control system meant to prevent any advancement on your part. This time is turbulent for you, but persevere and great things will follow.
>> Anonymous
OP here. The real OP, not you crazy fuckers pretending to me (that's fairly hypacritical of me to say). Just got back from work, they were there. I can take a joke, so Sponge and Tongue, you gave me a good laugh.

Something weird happened. Usually they mirror themselves and do the same thing as a group of 4. i.e. move the same, at the same time. Tonight they just wandered around aimlessly. I don't know if thats of any importance.
>> Sponge !!5qxfxHYSQxJ
>>454083

They're bored tonight, put the TV on for them or something, you're a shitty host.
>> Anonymous
Oh god, sponge had me laughing so hard.
>> Anonymous
if i were you i'd try to control them and use them as your own army or something

i wish i had that shit
>> Anonymous
If you're serious, then there's 2 obvious options. You either have a mental disability, or there's some paranormal thing going on and you're seeing ghosts or stuff.

I'm not really into paranormal stuff so you'd have to look that up for yourself.
>> Anonymous
>>453701
Tell me more about this, please.
>> Anonymous
If you're not intent on seeing a doctor right away, you might as well make the best out of it. They're creations of your own mind, so they can't hurt you or anything, and you might be able to change them in some way if you focus on it. If you learn to enjoy their company and you're not being debilitated in some other way, you might be able to live with it, although I wouldn't recommend doing it for too long.

Make sure you're getting enough sleep, have a good diet, get some exercise, and all that. If they're still there in like a week or so, or you're distressed by them, you should probably get some help.
>> Anonymous
>>454223
I'll try and stick with this.
>> Anonymous
>>454223

Just because they're creations of your own mind, doesn't mean they can't hurt you. They may not be able to harm you physically, but considering this is happening to you at all, other aspects of your reality could have been altered as well. Indirectly, these creations of your mind could develop to the point where they may be of harm to you. I would advise seeking out professional help, especially if there's a gradual increase of odd things happening.

PS. Lol at the guy giving the shocker, no?
>> Anonymous
>>454284
So do you think my mind's created some kind of..altered universe type thing? Honest question.
>> Anonymous
>>453345
OMG ME TOO THIS WOULD BE SO COOL I COULD BE A GREAT ARTIST WITHOUT SMOKING POT AND DOING SHROOMS

>>453568

LOLOLOLOLOL
>> Anonymous
>>454291
THIS is exactly the sort of thing you shouldn't be considering. What you have is not directly related to your hallucinations. Nothing they say or do changes anything, so don't let it. Your reality is not changed by them. Get help or they'll keep trying to change you in ways they have no right to.
>> get help now bigbear
Get help now. The reason is that Schiz can be a very progressive disorder, meaning that it will get much worse with time untreated. You may be able to think rationally now, but you could lose that ability in the very near future. Go to your doctor, you don't need to seek out a shrink specifically yet.
>> Anonymous
Let them control you, they're demons and their going to help you rule the world.
>> Anonymous
>>454467
Hmm, you know, you kid about that stuff, but I'm starting to doubt my mental state now. I feel perfectly fine. I'm not having deranged, homicidal thoughts, I'm not talking to myself (other than them) I feel fine, besides the whole seeing/hearing thing. To me, they feel real, like they're watching me all the time, it doesn't feel like something in my head anymore. Maybe this shit's just getting to me now, or maybe they're something I clearly don't understand.
>> Anonymous
Kill them Matthew, they are interfering with our plans Matthew.. Don't let them stop you Matthew..
MATTHEW SHREIIKSKKSSKSAK SHREEEIIIKKKKKK
>> Anonymous
I'm sorry to hear about that, OP. The thought of seeing something like that frightens me.

Go get help, you can still live normally, and don't be afraid to seek out a support group. If any of your friends or whatever decides to label you a "freak" they aren;t worth it anyways. You need to be positive of who is going to be there for you.
>> Anonymous
>>453402
i lold
>> Anonymous
go get some professional help before you start smearing poop on your walls and then tape a shotgun to your throat and threaten to kill yourself if the police try to take you from your poop castle
>> Apple
OP, I think you're clairvoyant. Have you tried going to /x/ about this?
>> Anonymous
>>454543
omg, I lol'd so hard
>> JESUS !vBOFA0jTOg
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GOOD JOB OP YOU HAVE SHADOW PEOPLE LIVING IN YOUR HOUSE, DONT GIVE THEM NAMES UNLESS YOU WANT THEM TO FUCK YOU UP!
>> Anonymous
I advise hitting up doctorslounge.com, they have a psych forum with real doctors to give advice.
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>>453485
I spent too long reading this thread until someone posted this.
Your solution is easy.
Become a superhero and fight crime.
But no. I agree with seeing a psych about it, but if they're not harmful at all, that does sound like it might not be so bad.
The way you describe them sounds like they're continually animating. That is, becoming more lifelike, more human. I believe your visions will continue to evolve.
When you talk with them, do you do it mentally or say things out loud?
When they talk to you, it's obvious it's mentally and not audibly. But do they all pretty much tell you the same thing? Or do they tell you different things?
If they say relatively the same thing, I'd classify them all as one person just in 4 places. Treat them as a single entity. Mentally communicate with them, even if they reject it. Try to do it when they talk to you, you may get a response to your reply.
Do you see them when you're outside, or moving around, or exercising(if you do)?
Have you talked to anybody you know about it, or have you told anybody else the things they say?
You must recognize because you see them, they're an entity of your thought. They only know things and tell you things you know.
But have fun with that.
>> Anonymous
>>454493

>I'm not talking to myself (other than them)

That's the point though. As far as everyone else is concerned, you /are/ talking to yourself. Even though it's perfectly rational for you to try to talk to these things. Go get help.
>> Anonymous
Hang on do you only see them at home?
>> Anonymous
>>453322

I think you need to do more reps per set. So I was driving back home and saw this large orange object in the sky fading away. Don't forget your proteins, they are essential when you are bulking up. 36! I need scissors.
>> Anonymous
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Take off your glasses OP
>> Anonymous
The moment they start acting malicious, even things such as mocking or laughing at you, grab help. Mentally or supernaturally, once they start acting like that its a very bad idea to have them stay around you.
>> Anonymous
sounds like a case of niggers in your house, try catching them using some melon and chicken.
>> Anonymous
Dude, I see the same things because I was chosen by jesus to fight the darkness. Just like you........
>> Anonymous
Is it me or does they described a hella lot like the antispirals in TTGL... fuck that would be epic.
>> Anonymous
Not schizoprenia, it is called psychosis.
I use to see shadow people and still do when I get stressed out. As for the clicking, sounds like an auditory hallucination and still falls under psychosis. No worries, you are not crazy. Lots of people have seen the shadow people.
>> Anonymous
As cruel as it may be, this thread is cracking me up.

I feel sorry for you OP. It somehow sounds like a "cool" thing to have but at the same time I have to say: GET HELP. Already the fact that no one in here called you a "fag" or "freak" yet (which is usually the case on 4chan) is proof enough that we're telling you to do the right thing. And the ONLY right thing. Those shadowy creatures are not good for you, neither are they from the underworld or your minions, no matter how friendly they may seem. Sooner or later you'll not be able to communicate with real people because of them. Get help, as long as you're still able to!
>> Anonymous
>>454836

THIS is what I first thought.
Is your name by any chance Simon, OP?
>> Anonymous
>>They've only told me to do things that I wanted to do myself, like go get something to eat, or go to the bathroom, or change the channel on the tv.

Next stel is ythey start telling you to do things you don't really want to do. Enjoy stabbing someone to death because "the black figures told me to do it".
>> Anonymous
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GONGRATS OP YOU ARE NOW A SHAMAN

now go get a drum some raggy costume and find yourself a cave. also you'll need a bonfire and a tent probably
>> Anonymous
>>453322
Hm.. I tend to see the same thing too. No clicks though. I usually just go with them being http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shadow_people however..
>> Anonymous
Gee, it sure is /x/ in here today.
>> HAI OP HAI OP
This thread is full of trolls, but...

OP: Please draw a picture of what you see and post it here.
>> Anonymous
>>454852
>>454836

What's TTGL?

And no, my names Steve. But if it's of any importance, my parents struggled between Stephen and Simon when naming me, but they ultimately chose Stephen.
>> Anonymous
Sup Marc Spector aka Moon Knight, enjoying your Dissociative identity disorder?
>> Anonymous
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>>455645
forgot pic
>> Anonymous
>>455629
Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann
>> Anonymous
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>> Anonymous
>>455629
Do you have an older brother figure in your life? (Or an actual older brother)
>> Anonymous
I hate to say it, but you're actually their hallucination. You better hope they don't get help at their psychiatrist.
>> Anonymous
>>455938
I take it OP lives in Soviet Russia
>> Anonymous
Op is a troll you retards
>> Anonymous
OP, go fuck off on /x/
>> Anonymous
I am studying Psychology at university and just did my final report on schizophrenia.

There are a number of symptoms of schizophrenia. These include hallucinations, delusions and thought disorder. Other symptoms include withdrawl and loss of motivation.

Firstly, you are showing some of the positive symptoms of schizophrenia. You are experiecing hallucinations (the sounds and images that no one else can see or hear) and disordered thought. To gain a better understanding of what you are experiencing, I need to ask you a few questions.

I need to determine if you are delusional. Do you believe things that other people generally wouldn't believe? For example, do you believe someone is trying to kill you or that you are the second coming of Christ?

Do you find that you generally have no motivation?
Are you becoming withdrawn?
Do you find life hard to cope with?
Are you suffering from depression?

Anser these questions and I can help to diagnose you.
>> Anonymous
>>456642
Not op but I was wondering, if one sees things but always knows that they are not real is it still considered schizophrenia?
>> Anonymous
where the hell did you get your acid boy
>> Anonymous
>>456675

Hallucinations (while not under the influence of drugs, of course) are a symptom of schizophrenia. They can also be caused by extreme emotional states (i.e. depression, mania, post trauma).

Determining what disorder someone has or even if a disorder is present at all is dependent on context.
>> Anonymous
>>456675

Hallucinations (while not under the influence of drugs, of course) are a symptom of schizophrenia. They can also be caused by extreme emotional states (depression, mania, etc.).

Determining what disorder someone has or even if a disorder is present at all is dependent on context.
>> Anonymous
>>456675

It doesn't necessarily mean that the client has schizophrenia however it is a hallucination which is considered to be a symptom of schizophrenia.

There are some other questions I forgot to ask...

Does the OP take drugs? If so, what kind of drugs?
How often and how much alcohol does the OP consume? Does the OP have a family history of schizophrenia?
>> Anonymous
drink rubbing alcohol
>> Anonymous
>>453402
>>453486
>>453496
>>453568
>>453701
>>453754
>>453766
>>453767
>>454088

lold so fucking hard at half the posts in this thread
archive this shit
>> Anonymous
>>453345
This
>> Anonymous
Oh shit, now they seem to be getting scared...

Apparently they don't think it's safe for me in this neighborhood anymore...
>> Anonymous
One of them is telling me to call my mom's sister and her rich husband and ask if I can live with them...

They live in an upscale neighborhood called Bel-Air. The voices are telling me that I will be like a prince if I move there...
>> Anonymous
You should e-mail me, OP.

I've been dealing with my schizophrenia for about two years.

I can answer some things or just talk.
I've never had the chance to talk to anybody else that has it.