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Anonymous
hey /fit/ I'd like your input on personal retardation.

I (male) moved to a new country when I was 13, and went from being a happy kid with many friends who spent most time outside playing etc. to a dpressed socially isolated teenager within the space of ... a week. from 13-17 I barely had any friends, and spent my time burrowed away in my room with my computer playing games and fapping to porn. At 18 I finally got out of the nest, and began to live a more normal life. Or at least began trying. What I find interesting is that although I've become a much more well rounded person (am 32 now) I still cling to this retarded socio-sexual image of myself that became imprinted during these formative pubertarian years. In other words, I'm convinced that I am crap, although nothing about me actually lends that conviction any validity but the concivtion itself. Does this make sense? I mean I'm no virgin, I'm actually good looking enough that girls randomly drag me off to bed, but nothing ever lasts cuz I either hook up with girls that I really am not attracted to or I dont have the self confidence to keep the ones that I like. Anyone have any experience in shaking a crappy sociosexual imprint?
>> Sasky
No. And I still even live in my home and native land.
>> Anonymous
>>30925
Sounds to me that you're problem is motivational, or possibly you're suffering from a form of depression. I do recommend seeing your doctor and see what he/she thinks.

Personally I think it's motivational. You've never set yourself a challenge to change yourself. Ask yourself, is this the person you wanted to be when you were 10 and people were asking you what do you want to be in your life? If you aren't, you can take measures into your own hands. You can actually change more things about yourself than you realize.

I was a total ubergeek until 24. Star Wars, Star Trek, X-men, D&D, all that nerd shit. I dropped all my nerd habits and changed my life around.
In 5 years, I got myself in better shape (though I'm still working on it), have been in a great relationship for almost 4 years, haven't told a lie, and I'm working towards starting my own film production company. I changed my approach to life from being a coward, thieving liar, to becoming someone with integrity and kindness, and have become a respected leader in my community. I still deal with depression, which has affected me for my entire life, but I see it as my personal challenge to seek to build that which will make me happy.