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Anonymous
I live in Yurop, in a country where there is conscription, and one of the ways to avoid getting drafted is to go to a university. So I did it. I wanted to go to one anyway, but not this year and not this particular major. I just wanted to have one gap year, so I can take a rest after anything that happened in my life and think things over. What I want to do in my life etc. And there I met this girl. I felt in love almost immediately, she was very beautiful very intelligent - man, you could say she was perfect. I could talk to her about everything, and just by looking at her I felt like Arnold getting a pump. We became friends very quickly, but I never wanted to be only friend to her, I wanted to be someone special. But she already had a BF. She wasn't satisfied with her relationship with him, and everything looked like it's going to end sooner or later. I thought that I might as well wait - I had nothing to lose, and I could've won everything. Her BF was playing basketball, and that made me hit the gym, so I could be even more athletic than him. I got the brains, and I wanted to have brawns also. I did it only so she would look at me not only as a friend, but also as a man. And they finally broke up. When I told her, that I'm in love with her, and I want to be with her, and all that stuff, she said, she wants me as her best friend, not as her boyfriend. Man, I felt like shit after that. When she declined me, I never saw her again, never went to the classes any more. Changed my phone number, mail and messenger so I would not have anything to do with her. After one and half a month of serious depression I had nothing to do. So right now, I just train, so next time I met someone like her, I will be already in my ideal shape and state. But, thinking about her, makes me go sad. And when I'm sad, when I think that I was someone unworthy of her, I just feel like shit and don't want to eat or train.
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