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>>40776 This works for me. My mood is (for some unknown reason) linked to my immediate environment, especially if it's home.
The problem is when it's dirty, I don't feel like doing anything, including cleaning. So I don't clean, and I'm stuck in a loop. If somebody else cleans up, I perk up and keep it clean for a while, till I get distracted and too big of a mess piles up. Then I'm back to feeling down.
Anyways, I'm not sure willpower is the word, since it sounds like forcing yourself to do something - which I hate. I don't know a word for what I want to say.
Willpower and forcing yourself is one way to do it. You can just do it. I can also stay focused well on something I can about, and rarely on certain things I don't care about but for some reason become obsessive with (??). The main thing I want to say though, like I said, I can't put a word to.
It's like when playing a relatively complex RTS, and there's all these different things you can do and you need to do heavy multitasking. Things get quiet for a while, you have a decent army and decent resources, and sometimes at that point I would just kind of space out. I'd still be playing, but slowly and poorly. Suddenly, a huge enemy army would come in and I find out I've been wasting a lot of time just sitting there not really knowing where to go next.
The same thing happens when I shower and I take hour long showers.
I'm getting better at it, and honestly don't see it as that much of a problem. A lot of time is wasted, but I always feel like I could just do it right if I really wanted. I've tried sheer effort, and I can go for a while, but I inevitably forget I was putting forth the effort and fade back into the zoning.
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