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dear /fit/, my life full of problems so I have come here to seek advice. This has to do with mental health since mine has been deteriorating over the years due to my situation, so I guess I should post this here in the health board.

First, this isn't copypasta or a joke or anything, withhold the inevitable become an hero, kill yourself, ect. posts. Also, I might go on a rant about a bunch of things, but the point I'm going to make is to give you an idea of how I feel after years of mental torture and I am seeking your advice. This might take a few posts to complete. I'm 22 years old and a virgin. No girl has ever hit on me, and every girl that I have ever liked thought I was repulsive. Whenever I would offer something or talk to them, they would give a nasty look just to make sure that I didn't think they thought of me in a good way. That's with EVERY girl ever in my life. Not only this, but gay guys hit on me every day that I go out of the house. Literally, the average number of guys that hit on me is three if I'm out all day. This is causing severe depression and I am becoming insane and have homicidal and suicidal thoughts going through my mind constantly. I won't go through with them and I DAMN well won't tell anyone IRL or go to an institute or therapist or counselor about this because I could never trust anyone in my life. I'll cut a long story about that short and tell you that I was framed by my parents and sent to an institution when I was a teenager and the therapists and psychiatrists were all corrupt.
>> Anonymous
They interrogated me about what I was being accused of and I constantly denied it, but they didn't believe me so they treated me anyway. That's why I will never talk or trust to any mental health people again. (it's funny how anonymous is fighting scientology which opposes psychiatry... I hate them both). So anyway, more about gay guys hitting on me. The last time I went out, two guys hit on me. The first was when I was trying to cross the street, and a guy laid his hand on my lower back and left it there. I turned around and gave him a nasty look until he went away. I don't even remember the second time that day. Today I went out for a walk and there was an old married couple in their 60's who walked past me. The woman was walking ahead of the guy and I looked at the guy and he put on a gay smirk and winked at me. It's been this way all my life. A few months ago I was walking down the street at night and a guy pulled over in his pickup truck and asked me if I would give him a blowjob for money. Always fucking gay people and never girls, ever. I look good, but for some reason only guys like me and girls hate me. Lately I've been spending all my time in my room on the floor in agony, my mind is deteriorating. I am worried that soon I will lose my sanity. My parents abused me, I've never known love from them and I've never known love in a relationship. I've never known love at all. I am reaching out here for advice. I will answer any questions if I need to. Please tell me what you can.
>> Anonymous
You seem upset. Maybe we can meet up for dinner sometime and talk about it.
>> Anonymous
Where is OP pic from and what is it?
>> Anonymous
Channel mental anguish into your squatz.

Seriously, a heavy workout that leaves you ready to sleep is a great way to make yourself feel great and get your mind off of all that...unpleasantness.

That said, you need to see a psychiatrist. The douchebags you mentioned earlier only did you wrong because it was your word against your parents'...and kids in that situation aren't expected to be very truthful about their actions. Someone you're paying for yourself will be there to help you in whatever way you need.
>> Anonymous
What were you accused of op?
>> Anonymous
>>128300
No jokes please.
>>128301
Google image search of agony, page 2.
>>128304
I will start working out. I'm a tall skinny guy with blond hair and blue eyes, for some reason only gay guys like that and girls hate it. Maybe being muscular will help with getting girls to be attracted to me, and I have tons of hateful angry energy to spend on working out. As for psychiatrists, I never thought about it that way, thanks. But I don't have any money to spend on that.
>> Anonymous
>>128309
My mom and step-dad accused me of sexually molesting children. I'm not kidding. The psychiatrist endlessly grilled me and I almost would have told them yes just so they would stop interrogating me, but I stood strong and kept telling the truth about my innocence. The psychiatrist actually became visibly frustrated because of my strong stand on my innocence, and he sent me into a room to fill out a dumbass multiple question paper full of stupid trick questions meant for pedophiles. After that he decided to send me to the institution anyway which permanently fucked up my perception of the entire law enforcement and psychiatry system. While I was there, I saw even more corruption: staff having sex with patients (who were all underage), drug use, ect. They let me out soon after realizing they were lied to by my parents.

As you can see, all my life I have never been able to trust anyone, ever. Not even my parents.
>> Anonymous
I fucking lol'd @ copypasta
>> Anonymous
>>128317
It's not copypasta you tool. gtfo.
>> Anonymous
>>128316
Sorry OP. That fucking blows dude.
>> Anonymous
>>128304
>That said, you need to see a psychiatrist

No he doesn't, don't listen to this sissy OP, if you go to a psychiatrist now or start drinking some medications you'll feel even shittier because you'll be a sissy boy.

Right now you're fucked up but you're better than hundreds of thousands of thousands of people seeking psychiatric help, and why? Because they are pussies who don't know how to solve their problems - they need some money robbing douchebag to comfort them and then prescribe them some placebo shit that will give them a nice addiction.

Believe me, once you give in to that rotten world, you'll have no hope because you'll always be a sissy boy who cried to his doctor, hoping to get some magical pills.

Now, what will make you better is aggression. This sounds so impossible - you let a guy touch you in the middle of the street? What the fuck? Next time something like that happens you start kicking the shit out of that motherfucker, doesn't matter if you are weak, use every tactic you can. If someone winks at you yell at him "what? fucking faggot, come over here you bitch, I'll whoop your ass" etc. This behavior will induce changes in you you're not even aware of, and soon you will have the attention of women. Just remember, be aggressive, any time, any place.
>> Anonymous
First of all, if this isn't elaborate bullshit, you picked the wrong fucking message board for this shit. Find some real help.
>> Anonymous
this is why we have amphetamines
>> Anonymous
OP do you have a strong relationship with friends?
>> Anonymous
>>128331
Thanks for the info. I've been a non-aggressive person, but I feel the hate building up inside of me and I know that this is the change I need to make. I didn't just let the guy touch me, I was waiting to cross the street and all of a sudden I feel a hand on my lower back. I turn around to my left and don't see anyone, I turn around to my right and look down and there's a short guy giving me a look with his hand still on my back. My face distorted to a genuine face filled with anger, and he walked away. Believe me, all that day I wish I could have beat the shit out out of him.
>> Anonymous
>>128337
I'm doing this here because it's anonymous.
>>128338
I've never resorted to drugs and I never will, except for alcohol which I greatly limit my intake of.
>>128339
This is another thing - I've never had a real friend in my life. Ever.
>> Anonymous
Man,you need to stop being dragged down all the time.Yeah I understand that you can't trust nobody but atleast you learned your lesson.Fuck everybody else,you don't need them anymore if all they can give you is trouble.Start working out with the thought that you can go further with less effort just by being care free when it comes to others and looking good with that attitude will make some people give you anything if you can just throw trust out the window.Trust is just hoping for something,so why not just go for something definite with your actions instead of worrying about your feelings for others.

tl;dr fuck everyone else,it's your life as far as you can experience,feelings for other people just give you a chance to get hurt
>> Anonymous
>>128316
What was their motivation for framing you? Also you say women despise you but in my experience gay men are usually treated well by women based on looks alone. I find it difficult to believe that a large portion of gay people are sexually attracted to you yet women are repulsed by you.
>> Anonymous
>>128355
Thanks.
>> Anonymous
I will probably get attacked terribly for this but I think the OP should seriously try finding a church community if he has not already settled into the "God is a lie, Christfags go die" way of thinking that permeates 4chan. Perhaps I've just had good experiences but church people generally want to help you because its their soul on the line when it comes to being a good person. Like all things one would have to be careful since not all church communities (much to my chagrin) show the level of compassion they should.
However, if the OP can find the right people they will be supportive and they will try to help him overcome his problems by providing a safe haven from his familial problems.

IB4 raging Dawkins fanboys and general trolling
>> Anonymous
>>128359

what the fuck are you doing at 4chan!?

ARE YOU FUCKING TROLLING FOR GOD HERE?! WTF
>> Anonymous
>>128358
Anything you can think of man I'll try and help,it may not be much but it's just from my experiences and what seems to work for me.
>> Anonymous
>>128356
I got tired of their abuse and one morning I woke up early and took every picture of me in all the photo albums and ripped them into pieces and put them in a pile in my room and wrote a letter telling my mom how much I hate her. I went off to school and a few hours later two police officers came into class and stood behind me until the bell rang and then they arrested me. I kept asking what I did and no one told me. I got my first clue when the psychiatrist asked me those questions, and I found out everything a couple of years later right before I turned 18 when I got my record sealed. As for the girl/gay guy situation, I don't understand it either but it is reality. The other posters in this thread have already picked up on the reason: I'm not aggressive, I look like a weak bitch who can be easily manipulated. No one knows how full of hatred I am.
>> Anonymous
OP, start exercising up a storm and imagine yourself pounding the life out of those asshole shrinks and beating away all of the BS you have paid witness to. I knew someone who was in a situation like yours, only more extended and a bit reversed since they were forced to recant (claimed rape on a family member) and had to face the ramifications- and like you, they never actually did anything wrong.
Thing is, you might not be able to fully trust someone again. That doesn't mean you need to give up completely though, I think it's a good idea to be a little wary of what you confide in to others but right now, I think you just need to go out and blow off steam. Indulge in a hobby, throw yourself out there and meet new people. After all, you've got nothing to lose.

Whoever said you need to see another psychiatrist is full of shit. My aforementioned friend went through a long line of them and none of them left a very lasting impression nor did they help her out of her abuse-filled life. What really helps is finding a friend you can connect with and share with.
Also, that is really fucking weird about the girls treating you like shit. Do you look painfully faggy or something..?
>> Anonymous
>>128361
Please keep civil fingers on your key board. I knew a difference of opinion was more than the average poster could handle. However, I was not advocating that the OP run off to join the Witnesses or Christian Scientists where the only medication is prayer power (a dubious prescription). I suggest the OP try out a preexisting support group that (roughly) follows values I identify with.

I forgot this was 4chan earlier so, just so this post qualifies FUCK
>> Anonymous
>>128365

I'm also a weak bitch. I would cry if I was forced to yell at someone. Homosexuals don't think I'm attractive and some women want to have sex with me.

Are you sure you aren't reaaaaly out of touch with reality? The thing about women really makes me wonder if your psychological problems are greater than you might realise. No one is out to get you except maybe yourself. Do you have a job?
>> Anonymous
>>128359
No. I was forced to go to church until I was 18. It was a strict pentacostal church. My step-dad would be in there raising his hands and yelling "PRAISE THE LORD!" and talking nice with everyone, but on the side he would see prostitutes and beat the shit out of me. I grew up thinking everyone was a hypocrite like this. I was always looking down at church and everyone in the church didn't like me because I was so anti-social. They always shook hands with my step-dad and looked at me disapprovingly, but I never did anything wrong. I was looking down and never singing because of how miserable I was, and my step-dad was the bad person but they were treating him really nice because he acted friendly. Plus the youth there always made me feel like an outcast. It fucked up my mind pretty bad and I will never go to church again, much like how I probably won't see a psychiatrist again. I agree that I need to find friends who can help me, but I've never had friends. No one wants to be my friend because I'm so anti-social and that creeps people out(because of what happened in my life), especially girls. It's a catch-22.
>>128361
Like I said, it's anonymous here.
>> Anonymous
>>128365
It's like I said earlier man,it's the hatred.I asked a friend of mine why she wouldn't go out with another one of my friends and she said "He looks angry all the time,like he would rape me or something".Think of it from another person's point of view,would you want to spend a lot of the time in your future with somebody that looks like they might snap at any second?
>> Anonymous
tell the gay guys that hit on you that if they help you get laid (by wimminz), you'l give them a handjob after

everybody wins
>> Anonymous
OP:

stop whining. pull yourself together. you are shooting down every suggestion we throw at you. that is really obnoxious.
>> Anonymous
ITT: OP is a gender confused batshit insane lesbian pedophile.
>> Anonymous
>>128387
all the solutions I've read so far end up with him needing somebody else to help him over come his problems.All he needs is somebody to give him a good idea of what to do and then he can go on his own to find a path that he enjoys most
>> Anonymous
>>128367
Thanks, I have resolved to start working out at the gym down the street from where I live starting next week. About the girl situation, I wish people could tell me why it is the way it is. It drives me insane thinking about it. I wish someone would just tell me. The only thing I can think of is my low self-esteem.
>>128378
No I don't have a job, and I accept that I have mental problems to the degree that you might think I have. I'm still intelligent, however, so I still know what I am talking about.
>>128380
You're right, thanks. My logic has been that that's just the way I feel and fake smiling and stuff would be manipulation so I've never done it, but at this point I don't give a shit anymore. After all the pain I've felt because of the rejection I've faced throughout my life, I don't care if it's manipulation anymore. I'm going to keep my sadness/hate on the inside from now on and put on a friendly/confident demeanor.
>>128387
No I'm not.
>> Anonymous
>>128404
Also another thing man,don't be sad or hateful because of what people did to you in the past.Since it's not really effecting you in the now,not counting how you let it,all you're doing is dragging it with you and stopping yourself from fully taking in now.
>> Anonymous
Life is easy, you're just lazy and full of excuses.

Seriously.
>> Anonymous
>>128379. That really sucks.

It causes me to rage when I hear about the hypocrisy that rife in Christianity because it causes people to identify what Christianity sometimes appears to be with what it should be. I'm not going to publish a retarded sounding religious manifesto on /fit/ but what I will say is that not everyone who attends church is a dick, even if many churches are full of those kind of hypocrites just like not every psychiatrist is out to get you. In both your experiences with mental health professionals and church goers you were a victim of being forced to deal with people who lacked any appreciation for your value as a human being seeming due to the fact that your parents structured all of your interactions before hand. I think that in both respects if you pick who you associate with yourself you'll do better.
If you oppose conventional and spiritual healing (though I disagree with that position) your only viable option is to dig deep and try to find the answers within yourself. At this point you have tons of potential for improvement and keep that in mind. Try deconstructing the social situations that frustrate you into their contributing components and find what you can do to gain more control over whats happening. Working out is a great idea as well and should give you confidence and an activity into which you can funnel your anger that is healthy. Also, if you still live with your mother and step-dad you have got to find a way to live on your own.
>> Anonymous
>>128415

Dammit, my grammar slipped.
>> Anonymous
1. Get a job
2. Get friends
3. Build confidence and social skills.
4. Girlfriend.

No one wants to have sex with a mentally ill unemployed faggot. Changing yourself is not easy but it is necessary to living a healthy and happy life.
>> Anonymous
>>128415
Yes, I do need to find the answers within myself, and I haven't lived with my parents since the aforementioned events which happened six years ago.
>>128440
I agree completely.
>> Anonymous
>I'm a tall skinny guy with blond hair and blue eyes

Change that "skinny" into "built" and you'd be perfect Waffen SS recruiting poster material...

That said,>>128440has a pretty good idea.
>> Anonymous
Self esteem is only aquired when you start improving on yourself. At this point in your life you need to stop wondering why all this shit has happened or why it is happening to you and move forward for yourself and within yourself. Everything you do in your life starts with mentality, start being optimistic wake up everyday and tell yourself what you're going to do and work as hard as you can for it. Fuck what you think people think of you, when you start improving on yourself and feeling better about yourself people will feel that vibe and become attracted to you more so as a person. Not all girls want assholes they just have a misconception of what confidence is, girls want confidence and someone who can overall be a MAN for them in my experience. Bottom line start working out, live healthy, get involved in something positive be it a club or a group or w/e its good to surround yourself with positive people who want to help and uplift you so you can change into the person you want to be and heal from the fucked up life you have had thus far. There is only hope if you want there to be.
>> Anonymous
>>128704
That's funny because I'm actually of all German heritage.
>>128822
Thanks
>> Anonymous
>>128822
THIS.
>> Anonymous
>>128295
NOW is the time to turn your life around OP,

You're going to start making changes
You're going to put the past behind you because there is nothing you can do about it. kids are fragile and easily fucked up by their parents, but you're a man now

Think positive, find things that motivate you and cling to them.
>> Anonymous
>>128880
OP is from the master race! i for one welcome our new arian overlord
>> Anonymous
>>128337

Eat shit and die. the large majority of people here do care
about people's problems because they each have at least a
small shred of compassion.

It sounds to me like you are scared of what OP is describing. Perhaps you should seek out some help to combat your lack
of balls.
>> Anonymous
There's not much I can say in the way of comfort, but I can give you some solidly based advice. I've been where you are, and I've felt what you feel.

There is only one solution. There are many paths to get there, but there is only ONE solution. You have to let go of the past. You have to take all tha anger, hatred, and disparity, and throw it out the window.

It's a hard process. I got my back broken by a fellow football player. I had two surgeries and I'm dealing with constant pain. But do I blame him? Not now. I did. I used to hate him. But there is one law of this world - think one way and you will be treated that way.

If you think that girls are disgusted by you, they are. If you think gays hit on you, they do. If you think you're hopeless, you are.

But. By the same token: If you think you can change, you can. If you think you can succeed, you can. If you think you can change the way people percieve you, you can.

That's not to say it isn't hard. There's hundreds of thousands of books written on self improvement, and they don't help one bit if you're not willing to put forth the effort.

No matter how wretched life may seem, there's always a way out. Remember that and move forward. Siphon your rage into productivity for good.
>> Anonymous
looks like you need to turn to deep prayer
>> Anonymous
>>129078

i like to think in this way whenever i am about to light up a cigarette; maybe i can quit!

Then i look at the cigarette.

I light it.
>> Anonymous
>>129089

I Lol'd really really hard
>> Anonymous
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>>128295

You should listen to this band, is what you should do.
>> Anonymous
>>129096

Believe it or not, that has been my favorite band for six years. I know every word of every song. I'm just now starting to get off of them because I realized how negatively it's affecting my mind.
>> Anonymous
>>129104

Korn was the first concert I ever went to, actually, and I still have a place for them in my music collection since I listened to so much of their shit when I was growing up. But they still are entirely easy to ridicule, and hence, I thought their ridiculously morbid lyrics fit the OP's ridiculously morbid situation.
>> Anonymous
>>129106

I am the OP, I made that last post. I thought it was a funny coincidence that you mentioned Korn. I was in that institute and one night while laying in bed with the radio on the song Here To Stay came on and it blew my mind. Each lyric of that song fit exactly to my situation and I got up and started dancing even though there were security cameras and they came and told me to stop right away. That's how I got into Korn, lol.
>> Anonymous
We will briefly talk about Korn now.

The first Korn song I ever enjoyed, I found while looking for the commercial for Heavenly Sword: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eWusDJcFoAM

Yea pretty odd how I found it, and at my age it's odd again that I would start listening to Korn but I guess I couldn't relate to any of their songs until now.
>> Anonymous
>>129113

Alone I Break is a great song and Untouchables is an incredible album. I fantasize about seeing a kid being picked on on his way home from school and walking up behind him and putting a copy of Untouchables in his backpack without him knowing about it. It's weird, I know, but it would kind of be a symbolic passing-on kind of thing since I'm letting go of Korn.
>> Anonymous
Korn makes terrible music for retarded angsty teens like the OP
>> Anonymous
>>129121

and you're gay.
>> Anonymous
>>128295

Look, I'll be honest with you and tell you that I don't give a damn about what kind of hardships you went through in life. Being abused by your parents and psychiatrists do not have any thing to do with why girls hate you and gays like you. Sorry to hear that you were fucked over by your parents, yeah it sucks, but it also sounds like this is NOT YOUR CURRENT PROBLEM.

I can tell you why girls look at you with a disgusted face though: you are a creep. Sure, you may not be a creep in your pure golden heart locked away somewhere in the deep dark shadow of your psyche, but you TALK like a creep, you LOOM over people and ACT like a creep, and hell, there is probably something creepy about your voice and the way you pronounce some words too. Something that signals neediness and generally creepiness. Possibly immaturity too: people don't exactly tend to continue maturing mentally after a huge mentally traumatising event.

Years of evolutionary honing has caused women to look out for confidence and bold signals in men. This is why young women date those college douchebags: they have not yet honed the skills to tell apart true confidence from douchebaggery.

Chances are, it's the psychiarists' interrogations playing in the back of your head whenever you talk to women. I wouldn't know. I'm certainly not a psychiatrist, much less your psychiatrist.

Why don't you start with recording yourself? Imagine yourself to be talking to a woman, the shopkeeper for small talk, whatever, record yourself, your voice, your face, your mannerisms - and play it back.

If you have any remaining high school friend or whatever, go look them up, ask them honestly about how other people perceived you during high school and whatnot. We're ultimately just online, we don't actually know how you act like around other people that causes even your parents to assume you're a creep.
>> How do i requested links?
Be an hero!
>> Anonymous
Op, we are going to need more information.

Age
Height/weight
Fitness experience

I can't help you with your mental health. I can help you with your body, and if you are beautiful people don't care how fucked up you are.
>> Anonymous
>>129126
You're right, I act like a creep even though I don't mean to. I've been thinking about this for a while. I am going to get a camcorder and record myself and then hone my communication skills.
>>129129
No thanks.
>>129130
That would be awesome if you helped me out with a workout/healthy diet. I'm 22 years old. 6'3", 190 pounds and really skinny. I haven't worked out since I was 19 and that was only for a month. I know that a lot of people quit working out soon after they start and that if I begin again I definitely won't quit.
>> Anonymous
OP

i know what your going through

I myself went through something like what happened to you. truth is Work out, it WILL help you alot.
and secondly to help your confidence, wear nice clothes.Seriously start wereing some good looking jeans and some nice White or or Lighter (not bright color) colors.seriously go down to a H-co or A&F
or A.E or something close to what they put out and get fucking tanner seriously that will help alooot no matter how good you think you looks. no girl will like you in a funky big ass metal shirt and riped as fuck jeans with a pale face.. atleast not the ones that matter

and change your personality. become more aggressive, and when talking to girls don't ever tell them too much about you .. especially hobbies and shit you do away from work. atleast on first date. Always be a bit of a jerk to a girl example" hey OP can you grab that for me.(you on a sofa all comfy n shit) Nah im pretty fuckin comfy ,why dont you come sit down with me instead/ no / get it yourself/im good/ no thats cool/ or Your closer". just little things be defiant sometimes not all the time. it helps to keep them around once you nab em. im guessing you in collage or highschool for living with your parents if your not then wtf. move out that WILL help too. thats all that i can think of what i did and im alot happier now that im a big fliping alpha that is a jerk to girls and only shows love somewhat every blue moon
IT ARE AWSOME
>> Anonymous
>>129136
Hmm, it's a bit strange you're a homomagnet but not a girl magnet. But the plan they're saying is right.

1-Man up.
2-Approach bitch.
3-Treat her "right".
4-PROFIT!! (= sex and maybe a relationship if you're into that)
>> Anonymous
Sorry to hear your sad story OP, but from the sounds of things you're not as bad as you may think you might be.

There's not much I can offer you on how to deal with the hardships you went through as a child, but I can try and help you deal with the rest of your life from now. You say that girls aren't attracted to you and only men are, well I say that's a pretty good start. If you weren't found attractive by anybody then maybe you'd have cause for concern, but at least someone finds an interest in you right? I'd ask if you can post pics of yourself and perhaps I could try offer advice on how to change your look to get girls. Believe me, you're not as bad looking as you may think you are, that's just the low-self esteem thinking.

Also, you seem like you have not much to lost so I recommend trying to feign confidence. More often than not it turns into real confidence, and you'll be happier when it does. Try talking to a few girls and get into conversation with them. You may be inclined to feel hurt if they reject you, but you have to just ignore those feelings and understand that you're doing it to better yourself. You have to take the steps to get to the top, right? Try and get yourself out there and make friends, it'll be hard but as I said you don't seem like you have much to lost at this point and you just need to keep trying. You'll be learning a lot about people and yourself from those experiences and you can only get better really.

I'd recommend watching a few films and possibly going to one of those 'positive thinker' sessions. If you don't feel like doing that, listen to the constructive advice given in this topic. Have you seen Fight Club? That film always gives me confidence when I feel like shit, and it might work for you too.

Keep trying Anon. Keep trying and don't give up, you'll get better eventually.
>> Anonymous
>>129136
http://defrancotraining.com/articles/archive/articles_westside.htm

This. This is your bible from now on.
>> Anonymous
>>129143
yep. have some edge, basically (just don't be an asshole)
>> Anonymous
I'd say not to listen to the "be angry/edgy" advice. That's not a good path to walk down really.

Confidence and character are different to anger and rage, don't confuse them.
>> Anonymous
Alot of good advice in this thread but keep
>>129188
in mind when reading it all. Basically don't be a girls butler or slave, be her equal, only do for her what youd expect her to do for you.
>> Anonymous
>>129185
Wait. So if I am training Tuesday, Thursday Friday with a starting strength program (deadlifts, squats, benches, cleans, press), and training for Soccer on a Tuesday and Thursday with games on a Saturday, am I hindering growth?
>> Anonymous
OP you are so full of shit.

Here's what you do, stop being a self loathing faggot. I'm serious. Oh boo hoo, your parents molested you or some shit and now you hate god. Well tough shit, kid. My dad was an alcoholic and we were poor. You're not the only one shit happens to. Either man up or let those faggots who hit on you destroy your ass with their STD ridden dicks.

Conciously imitate alpha males, confident people, and in due time you will subconciously become like them. Hold your head high. This is what real men do. Men walk upright, head held high, shoulders back, back straight, chest forward. Walk around like a badass, and envision yourself like that badass. You are the badass. Recite this bullshit line until you believe it.

Next time when you see that hot chick walking across the street who stares at you with contempt, you stare her right in the fucking eye. Practice this. Look people in the eye. Doesn't matter how they react. Hold your head up high, and don't break off eye contact. You are the badass. People will think you're batshit insane for doing this, but it helps strengthen your resolve if you've never done this before. Afterwards you've proven yourself that you can do it. Oh, so she laughed at you for staring her down? Well who fucking cares what she thinks, she's the one who sucks off guys in the bathroom for another free rum and coke.

Other people don't care about you. Do you care about how skinny the mailman looks? Do you ever stop to think about how the girl next door will never find love? How nobody will ever want her? How she's a fucking failure at life? No you don't, you pick up your groceries and go on with your life after she walks around the corner. Stop analyzing.
>> Anonymous
>>129253
>stop being a self loathing faggot and start being a delusional fucktwit.
fix'd
>> Anonymous
>>129256
Better to be a functional emitionally damaged dick with a false sense of self confidence than a whimpering cunt.
>> Anonymous
>>128295
Standing up for yourself, defending yourself and being an asshole are not all the same thing. Just because people have screwed you over doesn't mean you should turn around and do the same thing.
Get yourself out of the unhealthy situation you are in, but do it in a positive and healthy way. If you are still at home, get a job, get some money and leave. Leave the state if you have to. Go to school. Figure out what you want to do with your life. Do you want to spend it angry and bitter? If not, let that shit go now and MOVE ON.
>> Anonymous
A lot of the shit you morans are suggesting I, and I'm sure OP, would place under the 'easier said than done' category.

OP's obviously timid as fuck, for one.
OP's obviously poorly socially exercised, not to mention physically, for another.
I gather that OP is slightly out there, and maybe perceiving things a little radically, personally. I think OP would NOT be helped by -

feigning confidence/alpha-male qualities
prescription drugs
etc.

I think our OP needs to chat to his mirror a bit. Try to gather some charisma. Clean up his appearance; look presentable, fresh even. Get a tan. Maybe shave? And DEFINITELY begin working out/ getting in shape - that could help his self-confidence tremendously. You look better, you usually feel better, etc.

Good luck OP. Look on the bright side, yo. And do some squatz.
>> Anonymous
>>129258
The former is a problem to itself, the latter is a problem to society.
>> anonymous
About the gay guys versus girls thing, if you come across as being passive/submissive, then I think I understand. A lot of gay men like effeminate/passive guys, whereas women are more attracted to tough guys. That doesn't mean you should start believing alpha male/ladder theory bullshit, you should just be assertive but still be yourself.
>> Anonymous
Go outside, see the sun. Excersize.

This helped me get out of my depression.
>> Anonymous
Any pics of yourself in typical every day clothes so we can tell you what the problem is?
>> Anonymous
     File :-(, x)
Take some Mentats to boost your Charisma, Perception, and Intelligence
>> Anonymous
>>129143
I've noticed this before, a girl I liked used to ask me to get her stuff all the time and I was pathetic and complied.
>>129146
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>>129173
Thank you for the advice. Maybe I'll post a pic of me if I can find my webcam, I think I need to know what kind of haircut to get.
>>129185
cool thx
>>129253
ok thanks
>>129440
nope, I have a webcam somewhere but I can't find it at the moment. I'll tell you what I always wear, though: $15 black jeans from wallmart and cheap thrift store shirts. It looks dumb as hell but I honestly have no idea how to dress to look good. No one ever taught me how, I'm clueless and possibly hopeless unless someone helps me.

Thanks for all of the great advice everyone, I'm definitely going to start working out next week when I get a gym membership, along with eating healthy and becoming more social and a lot of the other things suggested here too.
>> Anonymous
>>129696
You do that. And if you find a girl that likes you and you go out for 5 months or more, start acting depressed and then throw out your story and she is forever yours.
>> Anonymous
I didn't read all of that crap, but will chime in with the suggestion of SQUATZ. they improve self-esteem even before they start making you stronger and handsomer and gettinlaid. but they do all of those things too.

look around, OP - the world is full of guys who are stupider, uglier, and less interesting than you that are getting tons of play from good looking women. the difference is that they don't care about being stupid, ugly, and boring.

start working, you will win in the end.
>> Anonymous
Can anyone suggest motivating musiks?
>> Anonymous
>>129797

"I Get Knocked Down" (But I Get Up Again) by Chumbawamba or however the FUCK you spell their name. Awesome song. Good luck OP! <3
>> Anonymous
>>129797
This song doesn't get you PUMPED, but it's the most inspirational song I've ever heard in my life. Probably not the best video, but the song and the lyrics are legendary. Whenever you feel down, throw this on and close your eyes while listening to it... you'll open your eyes as a different person. A better person:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=VjezSMZtB-c