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Anonymous
I got Depersonalization Disorder from smoking weed about 10 months ago. From then on it got more and more intense. Now, it's pretty ultra-severe. Time is at a standstill, memories, no matter how recent, seem like years ago, i don't recognize my self in the mirror. This is mixed with what I believe are HPPD symptoms like static vision, trails, and shit moving around a little. I feel, like most with DP/DR, constantly on the edge of insanity.

so yeah. Anyone else here got DP/DR? If so, what in gods name do you do to cope?
>> Anonymous
Doctor and/or therapist.
>> Anonymous
>>285238
They're completely fucking lost. My psychiatrist went through like 10 meds before we found one that actually does something (clonazapam). And i'm starting therapy on tuesday with another guy who's never even heard of the disorder. Huge knowledge gap in the psychiatric world about this shit.
(inb4 an hero)
>> Anonymous
I've been living with this, or for the most part symptoms of this the past couple years.

I feel as if everything I do in life is meant to be a mock joke, I'm living my life but the irony is "life" as "we" know it is simply me existing throughout the world. In simple terms, I am the only thing that really exists, people I meet, things I do, even stuff on TV and in the news is all coming from me somehow.

At first the feelings were very frightening to where I wouldn't want to continue to live because everything around me was fake and unreal.

The past year or so I've begun to play with my mind if you will and try and alter my life based on theories and rules of my life and how I've created it. I guess you could say, learn to accept and just play along and make best.

Figure out what kind of person you want to be and make subtle changes to effect it. Start conversations the same way with different people, I often use the same joke line which I've found out almost always evokes a positive reaction to whoever it was directed to.

In the end though, I still have the bad thoughts, even as I type this up. To me, this is just another gag in my life. The irony of me trying to describe my problems to somebody who has similar issues when infact, your not even real. Your just part of my imagination in this game of life.
>> Anonymous
I forgot to add, this all really started after I had a psychotic episode which came about from a bad drug night.
>> Anonymous
>>285250
Yeah, I got it from smoking way too much weed + doing acid. My brain was just susceptible i guess. Never went truly psychotic though, just really dissociated. What worries me really is the fucking brain fog. I've lost my ability to concentrate on anything. i couldn't even drive for a little while there. Sometimes... I don't know, it gets so bad that i actually forget who i am, where i am, and what is going on, only for a moment usually, but it fucking freaks me out. I feel like just a pair of eyes most of the time, but sometimes even those seem to disappear. Also, MASS confusion. Fuck I'm losing it. I'll be wearing tinfoil hats and mumbling to myself in a corner soon.
>> Anonymous
I wish I had your disorder... my problems are too common now ):
>> Anonymous
God shut the fuck up you attention whore. Go smoke some more weed that'll fix you up.
>> Anonymous
If life is a game you created why are you losing? That's like kojima not knowing how to beat MGS4. Epic fail.
>> False Gods of Pagan Lands
hah, I didn't even have to smoke anything to fall upon that train of thought, though I daresay the depression helped quite a bit

keep thinking, and talking to people about it, psycologists work well, you should acclimate within... I did it with a year of help, meds didn't work, seeing the psycologist probably is the one thing that kept me... unsuicidal (I mean, I thought about it, but very seldom was it serious, more like a morbid curiosity)

hoping you don't die, False
>> Anonymous
>>285306
>train of thought
Uh... which "train of thought" ?
>> Anonymous
Like, where do you get YOUR weed man...
>> Anonymous
>>285261
no
>>285262
saw it comin'
>>285326
see: solipsism, dissociation as a psychiatric symptom/illness
>>285306
That's good advice. Thanks, False.
>>285340
this french dude that got deported
>> Anonymous
I have DPD as well. What sucks almost as much as the actually disorder is that whenever someone asks about it, or if I try to explain it, it doesn't seem to come off as severe as it is. Or they think I'm talking about feeling like you're on the Truman Show which is simply not it.

I wish I knew how to help you. I haven't experienced any symptoms in a good couple of months but I don't know why. Hope things get better for you, OP. Stick in there.
>> Anonymous
>>285223
More weed.
>> Anonymous
MORE SQUATZ
>> Anonymous
do squats while smoking weed.
>> Anonymous
do squatz while smoking dick
>> Anonymous
do squats while smoking weed through your dick.
>> Anonymous
>>285517
>>285513
>>285511
>>285503
Fuckin lol, screen shotted.
>> Anonymous
do smoke while squatting dick
>> Anonymous
I had it for like a day, after my first time smoking up. My friends lied and said it was some weak stuff, but it was really purple haze. But shit, I don't know how I'd stay sane if I went through that for more than a few days. Sorry OP.
>> Anonymous
ITT: We think we have psychotic disorders we don't have in order to try to make ourselves sound different and important on the internet.
>> Anonymous
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>>286079
>> Anonymous
You didn't get it from smoking weed. Don't blame drugs for your problems.
>> Anonymous
>>286995

What a snazzy looking keyboard.
>> JESUS !vBOFA0jTOg
>>287028
Thats what I was thinking. O_o
>> Anonymous
>>287034

It's good to know that I'm on the same page as Jesus.
>> Anonymous
I've been feeling like this recently too, but I think it probably has something to do with my unhealthy tendency to lock myself up in a basement for the majority of the fucking summer. I figured it wouldn't make much of a difference, but I think the lack of sunlight has been fucking me up.
>> Anonymous
sounds awesome. how do i get it?
>> Anonymous
>>285249
this is called existentialism and is a perfectly legitimate philosophical perspective, but of course you already know that. try to ignore the absurdity of me telling you.
>> Anonymous
I've 'had' it for 1+ year. I got it from weed aswell. The anxiety that came with it basically ruined my memory and concentration. But I have full control over it now.
When I first got it i was sure i was growing insane. Now i don't mind it, occasionally it can even be helpful.

You have to realize that it is all in your head. It is not like Schizophrenia where you have a certain chemical unbalance.
Anyway you have to overcome the anxiety and accept it, after that it should start going away on its own.
>> Anonymous
STOP SMOKING POT YOU RETARDED HIPPY
>> Anonymous
OP what you describe mirrors exactly how I felt taking a shit load too much LSD about a week ago.

Fucking weird. You know how everyone has a distorted image of themself when they look in the mirror? Well take that shit away and when you're on it you see yourself in the mirror and its like you're looking at someone you've never met before, you see yourself for yourself.

IN BEFORE HALLUCINATING THIS ON A COMEDOWN.
>> Anonymous
All of you guys, lrn 2 find Atman.
>> Anonymous
>>285246
I would suck you off for a few milligrams of that.
>> Anonymous
OP here:
>>286079
It has nothing to do with psychosis. Look it up, dipshit.
>>287020
It WAS triggered by weed(or acid), although my brain WAS chemically predisposed.
>>285528
Thanks.
>>285474
Thanks.
>>287107
Good advice, thank you.
>>287130
People always assume I still smoke. I quit the day after I had my first panic attack.

>>287131
Same here. My last acid trip was baaad, and my first encounter with severe dissociation. If acid made you dissociate, I'd recommend not doing it anymore, because as far as I can tell thats not a typical reaction.

well this wasn't a total loss. thanks anon.
>> Anonymous
>>287170
yeah, clonazapam is good shit.
>> Anonymous
Woah. This sounds like the most kick ass disorder ever created. People pay good money to have a trip like this.

TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT. Like someone else said in this thread: if life's a game, why are you losing? Fuck! Drop the victim mentality and grab life by the balls. You're luck you can detach and do whatever you want without the need to be bogged down by human convention/emotion. Sounds like a winning combination to me.
>> Anonymous
>>286079
Basically what I thought when I read his posts.

Knock this pretentious bullshit off. You're not special or different.
>> Anonymous
>>287182

LSD anon here. It took a couple days to get over it. You probably feel trapped inside your own head if that makes sense and need to break free. The worst thing you can do is think about getting away from it. That makes it worse because you make a loop in your head. Don't think about, just carry on doing normal things in your life and it should dissapear.
>> Anonymous
wow weed didn't make you a mental case please stfu and gtfo
>> Moo !XBOXgikTFw
>>287208
BEEP BEEP POTFAG IN DENIAL DETECTED
>> Anonymous
>>287191

I do hope you never experience depersonalization. It's incredibly distressing.
>> Anonymous
>>287182
so then don't fucking do drugs if youre predisposed. dumbass you did to yourself.
>> Anonymous
Hey wanna talk about fun disorders? I have Dissociative Identity Disorder. Yeah, fuck your shit.
>> Anonymous
I developed it after years if childhood abuse. I would much rather have gotten it your way.
>> Anonymous
>>287257
I got really depersonalized under similar circumstances. When smoking weed I'd get really disassociated, like my life was a movie I was watching or something. But often, after becoming sober again, I'd slip in and out of this state accidentally.
I didn't go into a corner and start sucking my thumb, I just thought "Fuck yeah, I can do whatever I want".
I went from a stupid Hikki with no social life to someone with a girlfriend, business and who regularly does martial arts etc. . On top of that, I can feel as arrogant as I want. It's all a matter of perspective.
>> Anonymous
>>285223
tl;dr - retard fried his brain with bad pot BAAAAWWWWWWWW
>> Anonymous
When I was 8 or so I was diagnosed with depression and generalized anxiety disorder after a suicide attempt and put on a shitload of medications...I think in total 20-25 over a five year period, usually 2-3 at a time, ungodly high doses. When I was on them I would tell people it was 'like i was in a dream' (the only way i knew how to describe it), but they either didn't believe me or thought i was attention-seeking. I'm now 15 (yes, underageb&) and within the last few months I've been feeling depersonalized/disassociated for the first time in a few years, and it's worse than ever. I constantly feel detatched from reality/my surroundings. It's a disturbing contrast from 1-2 years ago, when I had crippling social anxiety. I went from being ridiculously scared of everything and anything to not caring about anything because nothing feels real to me. I'm definitely not going back to see a therapist or psychiatrist, as mental health professionals are the reason I am the way I am. I also have horrible memory. Also, occasionally I'll get this weird flash where it's like I'm looking at myself from a different angle (horrible description, but idk how else to describe it). I'm actually quite curious as to what drugs (non-prescription) would do to me in this state.
>> Anonymous
>>287465
you attempted suicide at 8? why?
>> Anonymous
>>287468
Yes, for the first time. I don't remember why. I don't think I was abused, but then again I don't really remember that much, especially from that long ago. The subsequent attempts were a result of me freaking out from not feeling in touch with reality.
>> Anonymous
>>287465
Wow, those drugs really fucked you up.
>> Anonymous
I sort of had that, or at least I was worried enough about what was going on I researched it and knew about it when whatever was happening..was happening

since this is /fit/ - health and fitness, I'd highly suggest eating healthy and working out and or running on a regular basis, healthy body usually equals healthy mind. then you can go back to smoking as much pot as you want, or you can be free of the mental prison you are in
>> Anonymous
>>287346
but how do you change your perspective? i'm constantly nervous, especially in public. how do i take advantage of this?
>> Anonymous
>>287468

>>When I was 8 or so I was diagnosed with depression and generalized anxiety disorder after a suicide attempt and put on a shitload of medications
>> Anonymous
>>287487
It's quite difficult to describe, but try and really notice the absurdity of the world, stupidity of things we take for granted. When in this dream-like state, go for a walk in a decently crowded place, really noticing what's around you in this way, almost ignoring the people around you. You don't have to look stupid doing it, just look at things while you walk. Doing this really helped me care less about what other people thought, and gave me a healthy sense of superiority over them, which helps alot in counteracting anxiety.