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/fit/, I need your help.

I'm 19, male and am a recovering bulimic. I am 6' 2 and weigh 58-60kgs (not too sure). Haven't binged for almost two months now (yay!)

The problem being, I believe I've transferred my psychological obsession to binge and purge into an obsession to watch what i eat and exercise.

It's steadily getting worse to the point I'll fake illness from work so I can jog/cycle/other exercise. My eating habit was changed very quickly from eating say a MASSIVE amount of junk food and softdrink (when I was bulimic), to eating amounts of which may be suitable for someone on a strict diet and water.

My psychologist has asked me to try a day without exercise but I havent been able to. I also believe I havent gained any weight (besides muscle from exercise).

How do I stop my obsession with the way I look, its so damn hard to keep exercising and pretty much starving. But it feels like I need to or I'll go nuts.

Pic is me (sorry its small, webcam).
>> Anonymous
Jesus you are way too tall for that weight.
>> Anonymous
>>308694
Do drugs.

Feels good man.
>> OP
>>308704

Thanks guy.
>> Anonymous
SQWATZ
>> Anonymous
>>308694

I'm 6'1 and when I weighed 128 lbs I looked a lot more sickly than you do in your pic.

Anyway, I used to starve eating only 400 calories a day. Then I switched to trying to eat right and working out every day. I'm still obsessing as much as I used to, just in a different way. At least this is healthier.

Just work out every day and use that as an excuse and motivator to eat. I promise you wont get fat.
>> Anonymous
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Actually, it is totally normal to be obsessive about your nutrition as a bulimic. That is a characteristic of your illness. You need to continue your meds, my friend. I am sure you have follow ups scheduled with a shrink. Work with them. Open up, figure it out. Good luck.
>> Anonymous
What kind of treatment are you getting from your psychologist?
>> OP
>>308714

>meds

Thanks for the support but, I'm meant to take meds? I think my psychologist is the talking kind, not the prescribing drugs and send you on your way kind.
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>>308713
You are not bulimic. But you are committing "transference". Don't worry, that happens a lot here.

Your experience is not the same as OPs. You do have your own issues, and are more likely to be suffering from anorexia nervosa, which is worse than bulimia, because bulimics are more "aware" than AN. I suggest YOU go to a shrink ASAP.
>> Anonymous
i hate people with these psychological "disorders" bullshits. Just fucking starve yourself and die.
>> Anonymous
>>308715

I'm not sure. I go there an hour a week, we talk about what happened during the week. He weighs me (I dont look) and he sets me an exercise or to usually.

When I was bulimic, I had to keep food diaries. At the moment, he's just letting me test the waters of not bingeing and purging. Which is good because I don't really feel upto being forced into anything right now.
>> Anonymous
>>308718

I thought this aswell tbh. Before it happened to me. I thought 'what a bunch of fucking attention whores'.

Seriously, its so difficult to understand if you aren't going through it, so I don't feel anger towards what you say. It's just a lack of understanding.
>> Anonymous
I am not your psychiatrist, or "psychologist" as you indicate. You have not indicated whether you are purgative type or non purgative. Regardless, most bulimics and ANs take SSRIs and anti-depressives.
>> Anonymous
>>308723

I did purge, without fingers or other influences, I was just able to throw up easily.

I was told medication was an option, but I declined. I at least managed to rid myself of the actual bulimia (I hope), by myself. Which I am very fucking proud of.
>> Anonymous
>>308727
Sounds like you are doing a good job, and should be proud. Many, many others are not up to that battle. Anyway, keep at it. Take it "day by day" as they always say. Oh, make sure to completely ignore fucktards like this asshole -->>>308718
>> Anonymous
>>308722
you're right. I could never understand someone who knows what they are doing is harmful to themselves and continues doing it. This is coming from a cigarette smoker.

if i could i'd drop your ass off some third world country where you eat nothing more than a bowl of rice a week and see how you'd throw it up. All the psych fags need a good beatdown to shake themselves out of their retardation.
>> Anonymous
>>308734
I love how you think that having an eating disorder or psychological disturbance is somehow connected to wealth and food. Enjoy your ignorance.
>> Anonymous
>Take it "day by day" as they always say.

Yeah I am, thanks.

And like I said>>308718is just in a rage due to lack of understanding. I just hope you are never In my position anon.
>> Anonymous
>>308739
let's see you try to throw shit up when you haven't eaten for a few days. Enjoy your "disorder".
>> Anonymous
>>308745

faget
>> Anonymous
Why is it that every thread that involves a psychological disorder always attracts that same self-righteous people who think that as a 20-something on 4chan they know more than professional psychologists with doctorates who have been practicing their profession for longer than most of them have been alive?
>> Anonymous
>>308760
WHY DON'T YOU JUST FUCKING LAY DOWN ON THE COUCH AND TALK ABOUT YOUR CHILDHOOD

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>> Anonymous
Why not try and get into body-building? You seem able to eat the right foods maybe if you read more into it you might change and start eating more and gaining more muscle.

Body-building exercises can also make you feel great, a self of achievement.
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>>308745
Speaking of disorders, you ought to look up cluster "b" disorders. You are falling right in. WHO THE FUCK SAID I HAVE AN EATING DISORDER, FUCKFACE? You make blanket statements across the board, and know not of what the fuck you speak.
>> Anonymous
BOO FRIGGEDY HOO. Fucking pathetic, asking 4chan for help then bawwwwwing when you're called an attention whore, you bitch ass attention whore. "*sniffle*... you guise aren't real psychiatrists..." No shit dumbfuck, and neither is yours. If Dr. Phail knew what the fuck he was doing you wouldn't be on here bawwwing. I hope you get hit by a bus.

What kind of a guy is bulimic anyways? That shit is for girls. You're obsessed with being a faggot.

Rage 8/10
>> Anonymous
OP looks like ET