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Mental health question Anonymous
I've been thinking a lot about suicide lately. I don't actually want to commit suicide, but for some reason I can't stop thinking about different ways to do it. How worried should I be?
>> Anonymous
why suicide? get a cool hobby and become the best!

also, collect 150 pokemen
>> Lekar'
been like that for about a year, then actualy tried to commit it...

seek help, resolve the problems that you have.

Always remember that there are people that have a much shittier life then you do (you have a house, an internet, a meal...) many people dont have any of those
>> Anonymous
Nah nothing to worry about. I often imagine myself driving my car onto the car coming at me. I can anticipate the crash.
>> Anonymous
How old are you. It's probably just a phase, get thorough it. You don't want to take your life away from your older self.
>> Anonymous
If you're still in any stage of puberty, welcome! This happens. Just keep it in your imagination, and you're good.
>> Anonymous
for style? self-immolation

for comfort? sleep with the car on in your garage
>> Anonymous
>>466960
>>467291
I'm 22, 23 in about a month. So I'm pretty sure it's not hormones messing with my head.
>> Anonymous
>>467321
teenage years have your body going through puberty.
late teens to early twenties your mind goes through puberty, so its normal to think these thoughts
>> Anonymous
over 30, or under 10 - get checked out. otherwise you're cool. If it's fleeting - for example, doesn't last more than a week, you're golden

also vitamin b, get some
>> Anonymous
>>467327
Word
>> Anonymous
google nordin bin montong, guy jumped into te fucking WHITE TIGER ENCLOSURE AND GOADED WHITE TIGERS UNTIL HE WAS KILLED BY WHITE TIGERS. no one should ever kill themselves ever agian, because this guy is the champ, the king, the greatest. theres a video floating around its amazing.
>> Anonymous
>>467684
I don't think that's amazing, and it's really sad that you think that it is.
>> Anonymous
>>467331

Otherfag. What if it's been going on since you were under 10? It's been happening with me since I was 8 or 9, but I haven't really done anything about it.
>> Anonymous
>>467794
Otherfag here.

If it's just a thought, like "I could kill myself right now, why the fuck did I even ask her to the dance, I know she likes that David kid," then you're clear. Same thing as wishing a painful death to your parents for not giving you ice cream when you were 5.

However, if you seriously consider it, like looking at a sunset, and you think, "Damn that's a nice tree over there to hang a noose from. All I have to do is go down to the hardware store 3 blocks away and grab me some rope - oh wait, lemme write a note first," then it's a different matter.
>> Anonymous
I've always been good at being an athlete and a student with friends and I can enjoy the simple stupid pleasures in life like a normal person but like OP I've thought about nearly every way you can kill yourself and can't go a single day without it crossing my mind. I've talked about it with some family and friends and mentioned I was having difficult times with therapists/councilors but never said suicide because they report for that... well nothing fixed it and it's only getting worse. I'm to the point now where I don't care about anything and that makes me hate my life so much. I guarantee anyone that transitioned from a normal lifestyle to the sedentary shitfest I've built around myself would make anyone want to commit suicide, but I built this life because I wanted to kill myself even when things were going right. It's not fixable. You should be very worried.
>> Anonymous
>>467684
stupid way to die.
scared the poor cats :(

anyway, op, same here.
i think about it constantly. all the time. sorta gives me more balls though. like im up for anything
>> Anonymous
>>468256
>However, if you seriously consider it, like looking at a sunset, and you think, "Damn that's a nice tree over there to hang a noose from. All I have to do is go down to the hardware store 3 blocks away and grab me some rope - oh wait, lemme write a note first," then it's a different matter.

I've had thoughts like that before. Stuff like I'm driving down a country road at high speed, see an oncoming semi truck, and think how easy it would be to just crash my car. I couldn't do it like that though, putting another persons life in danger.
>> Anonymous
my best friend killed himself......fucked up my life seriously........god i miss him...he was more of a brother to me than my own brother....who am i supposed to spit game to girls with...we even used to have routines we did together...we always got girls together always.....I don't like telling all my old stories because they all have my dead best friend in them so they make me sad....I haven't let one new person in my life in 4 years or something.....I used to make a new friend everyday......it's just not fucking fair
>> Anonymous
>>468768

Kill yourself.

Also, I wanna kill myself because I'm in love with a celebrety . how fucked up am I -_-
>> Godspeed You! Chinese Communist !!VKHtgYbiSfh
>>468280
More or bigger?
>> Anonymous
>>468768

I'm sorry man. My best friend attempted suicide about 6 months ago. Ever since he pulled through he hasn't been the same. We rarely talk and when we do, it's on such aloof topics that I feel that he's already dead.

I miss him more than anything else. I still have dreams about him just walking up to me and telling me that he's sorry for everything and going back to the way life was before; when we were best friends and inseparable.

But life needs to move on. That's why I came to /fit/ actually. When I lost him, I immersed myself in my workout and exercising. Now I dropped 50 pounds, am feeling better.

I still haven't gotten over the loss of him though. Hurts every day.

OP, go get some counseling or something. Talk about your problems. Doesn't matter what it is just go get some help. Honestly, you may even be a friend of mine through the guise of the anonymous posts. I don't think I can handle losing another friend.
>> Anonymous
>>468704

BTW - driving/riding does NOT count. Everyone thinks of possible accident scenarios, it helps us think things through when driving.
>> Anonymous
>>468875
I wasn't thinking of it as an accident scenario. I was thinking about purposefully driving my car into the oncoming semi as a way to commit suicide.
>> Anonymous
>>466826
Do you exercise currently?
I wanted to kill myself for like 5 years and just hated life in general and then started working out and now everything is awesome and I lost 100 lb.

cool story, huh brah?
>> Anonymous
If you want to kill your self, just do it.

There is nothing afterwards.
>> Anonymous
femanon here... i feel like dying, but i'm too lazy to do something... sad still :)
>> Anonymous
femanon again... i will try working out
>>468896

thx dude :)
>> Anonymous
I've felt like complete and utter shit for several years now. It was getting to the stage where I'd randomly have to try really hard to stop myself crying when walking down the street. I've become actively worried about human contact with anyone who I don't know really well.

Finally went to see a doctor about it who thought I had some issues with anxiety and reffered me to a mental health expert.

Went to see him and he was more worried about making a long car journey and made it clear that I was preventing him from starting that car jounrey and getting him to where he wanted to be on time.

Basically said to me that he didn't think there was anything wrong me me because I agreed with everything he said (being the person I am, I have trouble disagreeing when told something) and that most people with major long term depression have trouble making eye contact which I didn't (because I've learnt I can focus on people's noses, and it seems like eye contact). Basically said "I'm not going to treat you, here's some happy thoughts group excersise classes you can attend" (which given my state is the last thing I'd ever want to do).

Left his surgery feeling like complete and utter shit. I've never felt as bad about myself as I did then. I didn't feel like suicide but I did feel like I wouldn't care if a car hit me.

tldr: fucking NHS 'specialists'. Just going to have to deal with it as I've no real choice. Hope you have a more positive result than I do
>> Anonymous
>>466826
should you worry about?
yes, you should worry
like to kill yourself
>> Godspeed You! Chinese Communist !!VKHtgYbiSfh
>>469074
Oh wow I have a hard time making eye contact with people when they talk to me. I just end up looking around or staring at some other spot. I always felt like I had some bit of depression, but nothing too serious. Oh well.
>> Anonymous
It is pretty serious. Thinking about killing yourself messes with your head. You may not realize it, but it really lowers your opinion of yourself, making it harder to interact and connect socially, makes you feel unworthy of nice things, which just makes you feel worse. I've been there and it isn't good. I highly suggest you find a friend/parent/therapist to talk about your problems, how you're feeling. I'm not suggesting taking a bunch of drugs to make you feel numb, just talking about it helps a lot.
>> Anonymous
I've had this problem OP.

It's to the point where I actually enjoy being severely depressed and suicidal.

Like if something doesn't go the way I plan, I justify it by saying "I can just kill myself later, no worries."
>> Anonymouse
>>469074
Dear anon, perhaps this is helpful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CxVm13KjWMY

Sincerely yours, anon.
>> Anonymous
I used to get depressed about stupid things, but soon i realized that getting into depression spirals was fucking stupid, i thought if one day i just cant make my life better no matter how hard i try i will kill myself, but if i can make it better why bother about stupid things that get me nowhere and pullme back, so far i have always been able to make my life better and overcame my problems. Tltr: If your going to kill yourself do it, if you can make your life better do it, been depressed is not going to help you in anything.
>> Anonymous
Fuck, nowadays if I am not depressed or feeling like shit I don't feel normal. It's almost like I relish the pain and insecurity, very similar to the feeling when you bust out a tough rep. As much as a dramaemofag as it might make me, I love feeling like shit or being beat down.
>> Anonymous
For the suicidal-fags out there:

Im guessing you live in a stable, western country. You probably have a job, you have the internet, and youre probably eating at least once a day.

Now think about the people that live in backwards-ass third world countries. Would you rather be them?
>> Anonymous
>>469227

I live in Serbia :(
>> Anonymous
>>469317
But they are pathetic losers who can't deal with their own lives.
>> Anonymous
>>469227
>Would you rather be them?
I wouldn't mind, really. Extremes of physical discomfort don't bother me. I'm very good at coming to terms with the hand that's been dealt.
>> Anonymous
>>469331
I work with some Serbian women.
Your music is really lulzy.
>> Anonymous
>>469339
Serb fag here again.

You from anon?

If you mean our Turbo-Folk scene, it makes me suicide when I listen to it.

But srsly, our economy is fucked up. Unless you have a really stable job, you can't fuckin eat healthy.
>> Anonymous
Move to America. You speak English, right? Arrange travel arrangements for Americans to make sex holiday getaways with Serbian prostitutes.
>> Anonymous
>>469365
Yup, I think I speak it pretty fluently. It's a nice plan, but Serbia doesn't have that much prostitutes like some other countries.

Also, in b4 terrorist.
>> Anonymous
>>469380

Do you speak any other East European languages? Because I really want to bang some slavic hookers
>> Anonymous
I sometimes make myself cry and start beating the shit out of my wooden door, feels good brah
>> Anonymous
I've been thinking about suicide from eight grade and I'm 21 now. Never told this to anybody because I don't want to be marked in my family/with friends. On the outside I'm almost always happy.

I won't do suicide bcause I know many people will get sad as long as I don't do something really stupid like accidentally hit my mom when I'm drunk etc. I get sad when I think that I really could do something like this.