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Anonymous
sup /fit/?

I'm a /fit/ regular who usually sticks to giving advice and asking about fitness but I'd really like to ask another question that has more to do with mental health than anything else.

I think I'm depressed and I don't know what to do about it.

I live with my partner who I love very much, so there's no problem there. I get along very well with my family and my other halves family.

I had a good job, decided to leave to persue a career in psychotherapy (funnily enough) and I'm enjoying university so far, so it's not that.

I just don't seem to get much joy in my life. My mind is plagued with tiny little niggles all the time. If something goes really well and fills me with happiness, I instantly find something to cancel it out with.
>> Anonymous
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I very rarely get excited about anything and I have very little motivation. I'm convinced I'm doing the wrong thing with my life, I regret a lot of my decisions (such as getting in debt quite young) and to be quite honest, I dislike myself as a person.

Most people who know me describe me as funny, adorable and sweet person who goes out of their way to help others. And this is true. But I don't feel worthy of anything.

I have constant anxiety and feel threatened by everybody who is the same sex as me. It's absolutely fucking ridiculous because I love people. I'm a people watcher.

I just feel so full of hate and misery at the moment that I hate everybody else.

I want to be the happy, positive, carefree person that I appear to be but I just can't be.

So my question is, /fit/....what can I do about it?

Therapy frightens me, medication scares me even more. But at the same time, I can't deal with this. I should be enjoying life.
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>>441950
not be a fucking faggot thats what
>> sirch !!o3lMs3wDns6
sounds like you need to get wasted more often, and find something to fill your mind so you can't obsess on unpleasant nothings.
>> Anonymous
I go to the gym regularly which makes me feel great at the time but as soon as I'm not doing something, my mind starts working and things start coming out and suddenly, I'm feeling equally as shit about absolutely nothing.

I understand the logic of why I am like I am. I imagine many people are in a similar boat. I'm not a spoilt little shit, I'm not a moany teenager and I'm not following the depression trend. I don't want to be depressed.

So any help/advice/experience would be greatly appreciated.

Apologies for the massive length (lol). Needed to get it all off my chest and stupidly, I kind of trust this board.

TL;DR - I feel I'm depressed. What can I do? (not including SQUATZ and OATZ)
>> Anonymous
>>441955

No no, I do drink whenever I'm free on a weekend. I have friends, I know how to let go and have an awesome time.

But the second that isn't there, I just revert. It's shit.
>> Anonymous
>>441953

Thank you. I hope this anonymous put-down helped your life feel more fulfilled.
>> Anonymous
cry more...seriously
>> Anonymous
i meant it, cry
crying is better than sex and once you cry because of how shitty you feel...you will feel better and motivated to do something about it, just let out all those feelings and cry
>> Anonymous
>>441993

I cry too much as it is.

Honestly, if i think about two/three of the things that really make me unhappy (money, the future, etc) then I'm bawwwwing away like a fucking faggot.
>> Anonymous
I feel the same for like a year ;/
perfect life, bad mood all day long
>> Anonymous
OMG I feel the same as OP.
>> Anonymous
>>442007

I definitely don't have a perfect life. Like I said, I have a few thousand pounds worth of debt on that I just cannot pay off. It's not as bad as some peoples debt but it still limits my life to a point.

I often think to myself "if I didn't have debt, I'd be happier", but I said a similar thing about uni, "if I went to uni instead of working, I'd be happier". I'm there now and I still feel down.

So it feels like I'm stuck with it. But I want to be happier. I've spent years convincing myself it's fine when it's really not because I can't stand the idea of not being able to experience life properly because I've been diagnosed with some shitty, ambiguous disorder.

>>442010

It's nice (or...not so nice) to know there are other people with this problem.
>> Anonymous
it's not about the current situation.
People who win a lot of money return to their regular mood after some time. Sad people stay sad.
It's all in your head. And that's the sad thing.
>> Anonymous
>>442030

The stupid thing is, I've studied this. I can give the best advice ever so people suffering mental illness. I just can't use this information logically to help myself.

I hope I'm not stuck like this forever because that would be a shame.
>> Anonymous
>>442038

Same here. It's a brain chemistry thing.
>> Anonymous
At some point you have to stop being rational.
What I found out was best for me is just not thinking about the bad things.
>> Anonymous
>>442057

How exactly did you do this, if you don't mind me asking?

Sometimes, I feel like I can take on the world. I genuinely feel like I can cope with any problems and stay happy. Ten minutes later, I'm stressing again and it all goes to shit.

I appreciate this thread is just a collection of "bawww" and I'm sorry about that. But I know how knowledgeable /fit/ can be at times.
>> Anonymous
>>442136

>Sometimes, I feel like I can take on the world. I genuinely feel like I can cope with any problems and stay happy. Ten minutes later, I'm stressing again and it all goes to shit.

Cyclothymic disorder? Don't get hypochondric about it, but see it as a possible explanation.

Anyway, see a doctor. This is not just an issue. I learned yesterday and today how fucking invasive a depression can become in one's life.
>> Anonymous
Wish I could help you OP but I'm in the same boat as you and currently having a hard time.

I have been to 3 different therapists (two were great) but even though a session would put me in a good mood, a day later I'd be back to feeling crappy. It looks like this would be the case for you.

I haven't tried meds but I'm sure it's a chemical thing, probably for you too. Caffeine definitely does something to my brain where I feel on top of the world for about half a day.
>> Anonymous
>>442163

My doctor will offer me therapy (which I've had before and didn't help. It sounds very big-headed but I understand what they're doing to make me talk so it doesn't work as well) or drugs which I'd be willing to take but I'm not sure about either.

Is anybody here currently on anti-depressants?
>> Anonymous
>>442198

Thank you for sharing.

I was exactly the same with therapy. I'd sit there thinking "it's all words, this is just making me think about things more" and I'd leave feeling okay because I'd be assured I could deal with stuff but once I got away from that safety zone into my own life, it just went back to normal.

>>442163

Thanks again Anon. It could be that but I'm not into self-diagnosis so I guess I'll go and speak to a doctor about it and see what they recommend.