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Anonymous
I've got this problem that's been going on pretty much since just before puberty. I'm extremely critical of my body. I used to be a bit "soft", not enough to even be considered chubby, but not lean. This was early to mid puberty I'm talking about here (12-15). I was always an active kid; I played hockey (houseleague) and was a very skilled kickboxer for my age. I would see my friends, without their shirts on, in the changerooms for gym class and they all looked skinnier than me. I became extremely self conscious, thinking people would make fun of me for my weight, when my weight wasn't even an issue; I was still reasonably thin by today's standards. After awhile it was always on my mind. I was constantly wondering whether people around me were talking about how "fat" I was or whether my clothes were making me look chubby. At this point I had filled out, but hadn't really grown height-wise.

Over the past 3 years or so, I've really dedicated myself to my hockey. When I decided that my main interest lay in hockey, at about 15, I started to play a whole lot more of it. Naturally, playing that much made me a whole lot better. I started to play high level rep (AA-AAA) and then started playing even more. Coupled with that, I started my growth spurt a few months after my hockey "epiphany". Today, I spend about 2-3 hours, 6 days a week on the ice with dry land training on top of that. Naturally, 20+ hours a week of strenuous exercise and almost foot of growth since I was 15 has completely changed my body. My body type changed from stocky and soft to slim, lean, and toned at 6-7% body fat.

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>> Anonymous
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People I haven't seen in a few years tell me how amazing I look and how much of a night and day change there is in my appearance. But to this day, I still wonder if people think I'm fat; if theres some inside joke about the way I look that I'm not privy to. I check myself in the mirror regularly to make sure my clothes don't make me look fat. It's gotten slightly better since I was a kid, but it's all still there. I'm still very insecure and self-conscious. Is this something that's going to continue for my whole life? Am I the only one experiencing this kind of thing? Do tell /fit/, give me your stories, your knowledge, and your advice.

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>> Anonymous
>People I haven't seen in a few years tell me how amazing I look
I think it's already solved from all that hard work. Now quit being insecure......fatty. j/k :p
>> Anonymous
OP here,
I can't really explain it. Like you said though, the problem's been solved, I look great, and I KNOW that. On top of that though, I've got this insecurity about it that just haunts me. I guess it's evolved into uncertainty more than anything. Like I said, tough to explain.
>> Anonymous
generally when people specifically point it out they're being honest. but the insecurity might never go away. i guess you could try asking them if they're bullshitting you or not
>> Anonymous
>>163400
Social Anxiety Disorder.
>> Red Machine D !h1LZxECEVA
>>163362
>>163366

You shouldn't be asking for advice on 4chan, for one. For two, you need to work out less and see a therapist more.
>> Anonymous
It sounds like its just an insecurity youll have to get over. My though is have more sex. Always makes you feel better.

How old are you now, what level are you playing now, etc. I played a year of D1 and a year juniors.