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>>389926 Well, he is certainly right to an extent. If you had no justification whatsoever for your depression, I get the feeling that it would fade or recede or you would TRY to get rid of it. I know I was like that; I clung to my own misery because it made me somewhat of a martyr. Someone who would bear such a huge burden of such a difficult life, and just struggle through it. It was a pathetic notion, because, I mean, while that goes on in the back of your head, at the same time you have these genuine feelings of depression and misery. And they're shitty. But you think they're justified. Not to sound like a faggot, but at one stage I reached the point where I truly considered an heroing, was on the verge of doing so. And at that point I did have to stop and wonder, what is that proving, and who am I doing that for? If what I was pursuing was a cessation of feeling completely, as you said, hollow, that wouldn't be what I'd be achieving; all that would be is a cessation in itself. So, I mean, I reached a point where I realised that I wanted to be happy, didn't WANT to be depressed, and what I'd be losing by giving up depression was nothing, because I want my life to be the best it can be, and I have to make it so. My 'epiphany' was one of MAN THE FUCK UP AND I WILL NOT ALLOW YOU TO FAIL WHEN YOU PURSUE WHAT YOU WANT. And I fucking won't. I'm done.
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