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Anonymous
I've been living with this, or for the most part symptoms of this the past couple years.
I feel as if everything I do in life is meant to be a mock joke, I'm living my life but the irony is "life" as "we" know it is simply me existing throughout the world. In simple terms, I am the only thing that really exists, people I meet, things I do, even stuff on TV and in the news is all coming from me somehow.
At first the feelings were very frightening to where I wouldn't want to continue to live because everything around me was fake and unreal.
The past year or so I've begun to play with my mind if you will and try and alter my life based on theories and rules of my life and how I've created it. I guess you could say, learn to accept and just play along and make best.
Figure out what kind of person you want to be and make subtle changes to effect it. Start conversations the same way with different people, I often use the same joke line which I've found out almost always evokes a positive reaction to whoever it was directed to.
In the end though, I still have the bad thoughts, even as I type this up. To me, this is just another gag in my life. The irony of me trying to describe my problems to somebody who has similar issues when infact, your not even real. Your just part of my imagination in this game of life.
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