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Mr. LTE
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OP Here.
I appreciate the kind words, the truth is, I really can't help but look at myself in pictures or in the mirror and see anything but the 400 pound dork with a XXXL Shirt on and a 2-liter of soda in one hand with a brat in the other. Fuck. I know I have body image issues, but God, I just want some really visible results, I'm fairly sure if I just keep going hard I'll see something happen, but my God, I push myself constantly and its like...I just snapped and ate my fill, I ate the things I hadn't eaten in 2 years, because I wanted to taste them again. I lost control, and it reminded me that (Oh, you still have a fat ass), etc. I've been depressed since the binge ended.
Pic is me, sorry its lame, my gym buddy told me to pretend I was badass for a picture while he was fiddling around at my apartment.
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