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Anonymous
Alright, /fit/ I didn't know where else to put this, but I suppose health also refers to Mental health as well, so..

I've been on depression medication for a while, and it's been doing somewhat alright, with maybe one or two breakdowns over the past couple of months.

But I can't quite explain what I'm feeling right now. It's a feeling that there's something wrong with my head that I'd rather not say, and that I'll be some sort of freak when I grow old. I want to throw up and cry, but I can't do either. I'd like to die, but I, of course, lack the balls, and I know that I shouldn't.

I can't go to sleep. I'll start thinking about it again. The only thing that contents me is sitting here on the computer, typing and typing until the sun comes up. Even then I still think about it.

I recently discovered that I'm attracted to Cannibalism, so to speak. I'm so fucking scared. I don't want to be. I don't want to be the freaky guy who traps and eats children that people on /x/ look up on wikipedia 10 years later. Please. Please help. I'm so scared.

Please help me. I'm terrified and I don't know what to do.

Pic related, it's what I wish would happen so I wouldn't have to deal with this.
>> Anonymous
>>123484
Please, /fit/.
>> Anonymous
>>123484
Bump.
>> Anonymous
Eat fat people.
>> Anonymous
Watch silence of the lambs and lulz at what you'll be in the future
>> Anonymous
die in a fire
>> Anonymous
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Hey man, I know how you feel, shit sucks at first but you'll get over it like I did.
>> Anonymous
You want th throw up... just pull the trigger.
>> Anonymous
>>123484

I can relate to you because I still sometimes feel that I have no connection, noting in common with the rest of humanity at all. I have friends and a very active life, but this still happens: I feel that the rest of the world is just a game that plays out whether I participate or not, and anything I say to anyone will be misinterpreted into a language I don't understand.

Like it or not, this language and this game that I don't understand has to support me, because the rest of humanity won't leave me alone if I act like an animal, if I act like I am not identifiable as part of the human language game. People tread all over the rest of the life on the planet, so it's safest to act like you are part of the team rather than insisting that you don't want to play. This is more alienating that I can express.

What I have discovered is that I strongly relate to scientific pursuits, because the philosophy of science begins with "I don't understand" and doesn't condemn this lack of understanding. "I simply cannot understand people" is very satisfying to say without feeling guilty of alienated for saying it.
>> Anonymous
1: Go read the book of Psalms, followed by Ecclesiastes and Proverbs (inb4 shitstorm).

2: Get more sunshine; it could be SAD affecting you to some degree.

3: Look into volunteer work; something to help the community.

4: Since you're on /fit/ I assume you already exercise; if not, start.

5: Get a dog or cat.

I'll keep you in my prayers (inb4 second shitstorm). Good luck man.
>> Anonymous
>>123512

Being confused and not feeling like there is anything wrong with not having answers to hard questions is better than accepting religious answers and ceasing to ask questions.
>> Anonymous
OP here.

I just wish there was some way to make this go away. I don't want to live a lie or be alienated from society.

What can I do? medication? Therapy?

I don't care, I just want an answer.
>> Anonymous
>>123512
if you can only recruit people when theyve hit rock bottom, that really says something about your religion.
>> Poncho !yuVL0WVm.Q
>>123512
>5: Get a dog or cat.
delicious animals
>> Anonymous
>>123524
EXERCISE

ride your bike around town, if youre in the suburbs, and find a park, do some body weight exercises, try new foods, like fruits and vegetables. it may be that your chronically bored and its leading to depression.
>> Anonymous
>>123522

I agree.

>>123526

I'm honestly not trying to recruit anybody. I've been on /fit/, /g/, and /k/ for years now, and this is only the second time I've mentioned it to anyone. I don't share my religious beliefs unless I'm asked. Not all Christians are fit that stereotype.
>> Anonymous
It's hard to get away with.
>> Anonymous
Get the fuck off the Internet. Do it. I'm serious. If you feel like you're going through Internet withdrawal, that's just a sign how sick you are.

Get out, get exercise, and participate in normal activities. I don't give a shit if you're going to get all relativist here. You know what's normal and what's not. Do normal things, don't think about sick shit, make some new friends, get active, and stay the fuck off the Internet.
>> Anonymous
>>123546

This is good advice. Spending less time on the Internet, exercising, and interacting with other people would be a good path.

Also, try getting a hobby.
>> Anonymous
>>123549

Oh and that hobby shouldn't be trapping and eating children.