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Anonymous
took wellbutrin XL for a year after the depression got worse and worse and all i could think about was suicide. history all over my mom's side of the family, never ever talked about.
wellbutrin was amazing for me. it isn't a standard SSRI-style antidepressed (its usually called a "mood enhancer or something similar) as it acts primarily on dopamine and norepinephrine reuptake. the first day i was so dizzy i couldn't drive to work, but after that i had no negative side-effects. i had more energy and i stopped hating myself/being alive. also i got drunk 4x easier and was able to fuck like a pro. the extra energy and motivation got me out of the house and exercising, and i started losing weight and getting healthier.
then i left my job, lost my insurance, went off the meds, gained the weight back and stopped leaving the house. i have insurance again now, and consciously i know that i really should get back on the meds, and i would like to, but i can't seem to take the steps towards making it happen. probably because it hasn't gotten bad enough yet. depression sucks.
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