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Anonymous File :-(, x)
I've yet to decide whether my tendency is sadomasochism, or a torture fetish. I'm not into that humiliation shit, or being someone's slave. What I've dreamed about is plainly put this: I'm tied up helpless, and a woman whips, flogs or canes me. But no notable power exchange takes place, we'd still be pretty much equals. I'm merely giving her the permission to act out her fantasies with my body, and in doing so, I'd do her a favour which would please her, thus pleasuring me as well.
I'd like her to play with my senses. Knife play, needle play (no drawing blood though, don't like the idea of mess or permanent marks/damage), whipping with varying degrees of pain used and a tender aftercare afterwards. I'd like to feel it too when my hurting welts would be tended to. Sensory deprivation, (suspension) bondage, fire and ice play, nipple clamps. Kissing while she would firmly hold and pull me by my hair. It'd be like so in theory.
But in practise, no success in finding a companion so far, and tell you the truth, Anonymous feels pretty god damn inhibited at the moment, due to lack of faith in humanity. Sometimes I feel that an otherwise pretty awesome kinky person goes horribly to waste in me.
Erm... To answer the question, I guess all this'd make me the submissive party then, though if the girl'd tell me in detail what she wants, I guess I'd be able to top her too in return. But mainly I see myself as a submisive.
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