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>>1132963 You have to find your own personal comfort with it. I've gone through some heavy soul-searching, contemplating suicide, guilt, anguish, hatred, every negative emotion you could have about this, I've felt it. What have I found?
1) It's not going away. It is apart of who I am. 2) There are different parts of it. Go to understandinginfantilism.org or whatever it's called. Google that. Read and learn the psychology behind it. 3) Examine your personal history. How did you become attracted to it? 4) If you find a significant other, make sure that you've gone through and found all of the psychological information first, and the history. That way, when s/he inevitably finds your /d/iaper stash or your pacifier, you have thought and reasoning to explain it, instead of breaking down crying and feeling guilty. 5) This is *NOT* Pedophilia. This is Paraphilic Infantilism. (google it) You do NOT have a sexual orientation and stimulation from treating children as sexual objects. If you DO, well then you are a pedobear, and kindly gtfo. The point of this fetish is to *BECOME* the child (adult baby) *OR* to enjoy diapers themselves as a sexual object (diaper lover).
Figure out why you are how you are. It'll take time. It took me... Well, it started when I was 5 and /d/iapers were re-introduced into my life when my baby brother was born and I could fit into his, and then he was a bedwetter until ~13 so I got his Goodnites, too. I'm 23 now, so I've been a /d/iaperfag for 18 years that I've known. Might as well say that I've been it my entire life.
Self-actualization about this is hard, as is everything about yourself. I've come to terms with it, and I *still* get a guilty feeling about it every now and then. You aren't alone, but you shouldn't feel guilty. Just realize that you are who you are.
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