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Anonymous File :-(, x)
My biggest fetish is mind control, not the vanillia hypnotic induction stuff though - I get off to the thought of having absolute control over a woman's body, mind and soul, completely erasing her mind, destroying her identity and personality, everything that makes her a human being; rewiring her brain and modifying her body for just one purpouse: my pleasure. Making it permanent and irreversible makes it terrifying and incredibly arousing at the same time. I'd like my slaves to be happy though, physical pain is a huge turn-off for me, but I don't mind thinking up inventive ways of humiliating them.
So, why? First of all, I'm an insecure little bitch and I probably can't believe a woman can love me or desire me without me having to alter her perception. Also I'm probably afraid I am not able to satisfy women in bed. Second, I'm a control freak, I've got to have everything planned in advance and don't like taking risks, this ties in with #1 strongly. Having a mindless fucktoy fixes those two issues. Third: this fetish probably started when I've seen The Jungle Book for the first time as a kid. I remember being fascinated by the bliss and ecstasy Kaa seemed to put his victims in. Every goddamn kid show in the 90's having at least one mind control episode didn't help.
The pain=no humiliation=FUCK YES rule probably stems from the fact that as a kid I was mostly punished by humiliation and guilt trips rather than spankings. My minor fetishes include dickgirls (my gay side loves dicks, hates men unless they're really cute and effeminite), voluptous women (not BBW though, just big breasts and child-bearing hips - I'm a skinny guy and I love me some fat on a woman), mild bondage (domination & submission, no-pain policy etc.), feminization (I wish to be the little girl so people love me, humiliation, I used to dress as a little girl when I was a kid).
I know, I know, tl;dr, but what the hell, it's nice to vent and tell people about your hangups.
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