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Anonymous
hello /d/ cumdumpster here

Well I'll start from the beginning... For the past few months I became extremely depressed. My mom died, my boyfriend dumped me, and a lot of other things made me lose hope. I tried to kill myself. I failed. I took a whole bottle of pills, passed out, and woke up to find I had thrown them up. I'm in therapy now and things have become much better and I'm seeing another guy.

But ever since then, I have been extremely aroused by beating beaten or verbally abused. I used to be extremely shy about sex in GENERAL, let alone this kind of sex... If a teacher at school yells at me I get horny...

My boyfriend is into it but never pushed it on me. Now I BEG him to hit me, bite me, scratch me, fuck me too hard... Say horrible things to me... And its the only thing that gets me off. And it gets me off hard.

So /d/ I was wondering. is this the side effect of of post-trauma or some kind of chemical imbalance from trying to kill myself? I've been this way for a month and its only getting worse...
>> shmifty5
uh, im not sure but if your gonna ask a question at least post some porn, secondly you may just have a re-awakened fetish, like those other people who get off on being called trash and like getting wipped, i suggest you grab some leather and other such miscelania and have a fuckin pain party followed by extremely rough sex and a nice long shower
>> Anonymous
I'd rape you, no problem.
>> Anonymous
Not enough therapy. YOU NEED TO THERAPY HARDER.
>> shmifty5
>>1165666
no, therapy is not the solution to this sort of thing, if it really was some sort of chemical inbalance due to the medication it most likely would have passed by now
>> Anonymous
Rape therapy. It's your only hope.
>> Anonymous
You can't spell therapy with R-A-P.... wait fuck that doesn't work
>> Anonymous
You can't spell rapemobile without rape!
>> Anonymous
>>1165675
mind-body connection lrn2Psychology better
>> shmifty5
>>1165693
meh
>> Anonymous
>>1165693

To be fair, I was only making a joke with the THERAPY HARDER comment.
>> Anonymous
>>1165683
I don't know 'bout you, but, eh, I feel kinda - Rapey.
>> Anonymous
>>1165654
Ok, from my experience(undergrad in psych focus on mental disorders), you can still be suffering for depression, a different or changed form. Probably what is happening is similar to why cutter cut themselves. The pain emotional or physical is releasing endorphins, which is a nice release from a deading of feelings that is common with depression.

Basically its still depression. IMHO.

Also a clue train for all you retards. Chemicals are controlled by your emotions and thoughts, Just as chemicals control your emotions and thoughts. Its a feed back system. Everything is connected
>> Anonymous
>>1165654
id fuck you so ahrd youd pass out from the pain
>> Anonymous
shut up, slut. no one cares about your whining. the only time your mouth should be open is when you're begging for cock.

enjoy your fap
>> shmifty5
>>1165713
...you sir are corerect, but i enjoy a good /d/iscussion
>> Anonymous
Its your body method of coping with the situation. Its your defense mechanism
>> Anonymous
This thread belongs in /b/, not on a hentai board.
>> Anonymous
>>1165654
Depression typically lasts for months at a time, so you are still likely depressed, even if your conscious mind may not agree and you think everything is "better."
Basically, because of great trauma in your life and the inability to deal with it successfully has caused something to shift in your brain. It's not unheard of people to go through complete personality changes after traumatic events - such as cops becoming extremely violent after seeing their friends die and that sort of thing.
There is really no obvious way to revert to the way you were before and your lust for sexual violence probably comes from somewhere within your unconscious mind. My suggestion would be to try another kind of therapy, maybe something along the lines hypnosis. Understanding why your mind is telling you to act this way is the first step in recovering - you have to face yourself, so to speak.
>> Anonymous
I don't think this girl would last long in /b/.

at least, not after opening up like this.

OP: probably. best to scratch that itch and see what happens.
>> Anonymous
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>> shmifty5
>>1165736
im not too sure what hypnosis could really do for her, it could identify why she feels these feelings but it can't really fix them, btw im not a big believer in hypnosis as a cure, but there are several good tips and other such treatments/theories in this thread that a competent psychologist could and most likely would identify, maybe its just a little craving you've always had maybe its a coping mechanism who knows, but i believ through the power of /d/ we can treat it
>> Narrified Nazi !KeYl9g0R9.
>>1165768
Or if not treat it, only make it worse.
>> Anonymous
First off, stop calling yourself 'cumdumpster.' I'm a dude and I fucking hate that. There was no need to mention your sex at all in this post and if you had to just say you're fucking female. You don't need to degrade your whole sex just to announce it.

My advice as someone who has had lifelong depression and is a submissive is this:

Indulge yourself in your sexual urges but understand that they may be a side-effect of your depression, and that further down the road in your life, if you get over your depression, you may look back and feel uncomfortable about the way you used to fuck. You may feel, in the future, that your boyfriend took advantage of you, even if right now you feel like YOU MUST GET BEATEN RIGHT NOW PLEASE BEAT ME.

Believe me, I understand not being able to really come unless I'm getting tied down and whipped or whatever your thing is, and I understand the relief and even joy it brings when it someone will do these things for me. However, I also understand how it feels to look back a few years later and realize that I was personally miserable and my sexual 'needs' were related to that misery.

I don't have an answer as to whether or not it's best to indulge those needs-- they're powerful, and not having them met will make you miserable, too. My advice is to set some very hard limits for yourself, stick to them, and DON'T TAKE ANY PHOTOGRAPHS.

Anyway, whatever you do, good luck, don't hurt yourself, and keep a clear head regarding your dominant partner. Think hard if he really has your best interest in mind.
>> Anonymous
This shit isn't remotely /d/.
>> shmifty5
>>1165803
hmm, this is indeed food for thought and a pretty good example of why not to indulge in any sudden fancies, this is the prime example of /d/eviants giving good advice
>> Anonymous
Hah...there's actually some good advice here. Wtf is this /d?
>> Anonymous
Is this the "how can I lessen the impact of my /d/ related fetish" thread? Rather, can we make it that? It seems reasonable, seeing as how we're talking about how our real life effects our sex life.

I have asked /d/ about this before, but the thread was at an inconvenient time and there were very few replies, although some were quite helpful. OP, I hope you do not mind if I ask for help for my problem as well.

I have a huge infantilism fetish. I've never acted on it (I had only masturbated to it), and hell, before recently I had never even dared talk about it even here on /d/. Well, usually it is the only thing that can get me off. I felt like I had to keep this a secret from my significant other. Luckily when I told him, he was shocked but wasn't upset, although we are not going to incorporate it into our sex lives (or talk about it ever, ever again). I want to lessen the impact of this fetish in my sex life. I've tried to expand the things that I like, but the only other fetishes that seem to get me off are pet fetish and other forms of extreme humiliation. My boyfriend, however, is so completely vanilla that incorporating restraints is extreme for him. How do I make it so I don't need to think about this fetish when I'm getting off? I know that many /d/eviants have this or a similar affliction, but I know that some of you can deal with your /d/ fetishes and get off to other stuff. I had never even looked at porn of any kind before I found what now constitutes my fetish, I wasn't interested.

So, tl;dr: how can I come from something other than my creepy fetish?

psychology interested /d/eviants: after I examine why I like this fetish, what is the next step in making it not as big a deal to me?

Is there any middle ground I can find sexually with my SO? Many, many thanks and my apologies for intruding in your thread, OP.
>> shmifty5
>>1165830
there is no reason to hide your fetish, if your bf or gf has a problem with it dump their ass, also there is a thread currently set up for such a /d/iscussion try it there they should know better than anyone else, also if you truly wish to change your fetish try masturbating to your current fetish and right before you cum think about the fetish you wish to change it to, after a long process your brain should find the new fetish more stimulating than your current one
>> Anonymous
Wtf is wrong with you /d/, a girl like this is a gift, encourage her to stay that way.
>> Anonymous
>>1165830
If you want to go with the easy way, just fantasize about whatever gets you off while having sex with your boyfriend/partner. Many people do it and it works reasonable well unless you have a shitty imagination. Or, find somebody else who is willing to act on your fantasies. Sometimes, it is best to just come in terms with your desires rather than keeping them repressed throughout your life (unless it can get you jailed).

However, if you want the psychological approach, find like-minded people after you examine why you like your fetish.
It's pretty rare for someone to get off on only one thing, so, talk about it with other people and hear their opinions on the subject (chat-rooms, anonymous mettings, and so on).
When things are less taboo and more in-the-open, they are easier to analyze and deal with.
If you feel that this sexual need is just daunting to your life you would still have to come in terms with it - one way of doing it is to act it out to see if your "fantasy" is enjoyable in reality. You may find yourself completely turned off and seek sexual gratification of other sorts which may be in your benefit.
>> Anonymous
>>1165654
Since this only happened after that trauma, it is something that you should discuss in therapy. /d/ comes naturally to some people, but if it appeared all of a sudden then it may very well be some deeper psychological trouble at work here. It's like people who self-harm: that's a reaction to stress, not a fetish. Since you are in therapy anyway you should take full advantage of their services and find a better way to deal with whatever the problem is than posting on /d/.
>> Anonymous
>>1165839

Surprisingly enough, /d/ seems to be able to differentiate fantasy from reality when it comes to sexual fetishes and mental health. It's pretty comforting, actually.
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>> shmifty5
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>>1165854
racial coments are to be kept in /b/ piss off and die
>> Anonymous
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Not to go off topic but what webcomic is this?
>> Anonymous
>>1165879
http://www.smbc-comics.com/
>> OT3GUY
>>1165654
Sounds like you have body thatens i would recomend getting your self to the nearest Church of scientology and stop the thearpy you need to take LOTS of vitamens!!!