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I GUESS I WILL START WITH THE PASSIONS. WHAT HAPPENED TO ME YESTERDAY MORNING. I WOKE UP AND ALL I WANTED WAS MY FUCKING VIRAL. I THINK I MENTIONED IN MY PREVIOUS ENTRY THAT THE INTENSE FEELING DON'T HAPPEN QUITE AS OFTEN ANYMORE...ALTHOUGH THEY DO STILL HAPPEN. YESTERDAY MORNING WAS ONE OF THESE TIMES. I WOKE UP AND ALL I WANTED WAS HIM. I GUESS IT WAS ABOUT 1/2 HOUR INTO MY FANTASISING ABOUT HIM, AND IT HAPPENED. FIRST I HAD THIS FEELING INSIDE MY FUCKING CHEST. THEN IT CONSUMED ME. ALL THE WAY THROUGH MY FUCKING BODY. ALL OVER I FELT AN INTENSE HEAT...I GUESS HEAT IS THE NEAREST WORD THAT I CAN EXPLAIN IT AS...IT WAS REALLY MORE THAN THAT THOUGH...BUT WORDS CANNOT ALWAYS EXPRESS THESE THINGS. BUT I JUST FELT SO FUCKING CLOSE TO HIM. REALLY FUCKING CLOSE. IT WAS LIKE HE WAS THERE WITH ME, FUCKING ME. OF COURSE I KNOW THAT HE WAS NOT...BUT IT SURE DID FUCKING FEEL THAT WAY. I DIDN'T WANT THE FEELING TO END. BUT IT LASTED AT LEAST 10 MINUTES, I THINK...I COULDN'T REALLY KEEP TRACK OF THE TIME, AS IT WAS ALSO LIKE THE WORLD AROUND ME STOOD STILL WHILE IT WAS HAPPENING. THE EMOTION MADE IT FEEL LIKE IT WAS JUST ME AND VIRAL...TOGETHER. LIKE THERE WAS NOTHING ELSE. SHIT YEAH. MAYBE THAT IS WHAT IT WOULD FEEL LIKE IF I COULD REALLY BE IN THE DARKNESS WITH HIM. BEING FUCKING ENGULFED BY THAT FEELING, FEELING LIKE THERE IS ONLY THE TWO OF US TO SHARE OUR FUCKING LOVE TOGETHER. SIGH. HOW I WISH IT COULD HAPPEN. HOW I LONG TO BE WITH MY ETERNAL FUCKING LOVE...VIRAL. FUCK YEAH.
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