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Anonymous
See....I'm the same way.
But my story is a bit different.....You see, I'm not a social bug, nor have many friends, nether dated or had a relationship.
In my background, I found it hard to trust people, because In high school, and long time best friend turn on me, and he used the entire school body of my school to shun me. I was basically alone for years until I found an anime club, which I was able to relate and actually have friends.
But, its hard for me to directly talk to anyone, I mean, I'm 21 now, but I cant simply talk to someone. During this time since I joined the anime club, I had a crush on this girl, whom was in a relationship at the time ( i was bumped out), then she dumped him, I tried my luck, got turned down, because I was heavy. I tried a year later only for the same result. But for some reason, because I'm lonely, I took the crush as a hope, as for something to look forward to, but time and time again, I'm rejected. Seems I'm hitting my head againist a wall. Just like some fellows who responded, I just......want to be loved. Yes- I was emo for two years during soph. and junior of my high school, and kidna broke out of it into being a asshole, because I didnt like the fact I put effort into something, and not getting anything out of it, like dating, and ahem* World of Warcraft (quit and been off for two weeks.). On the related note of feeling lonely, damn, I turned 21 in July, w/ no one to celebrate it. My dad never interacts with me and my mom is over demanding. Never had siblings. I mean, every christmas and every bday I had, I only wanted one thing, a girl to love........
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