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J-chan
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When I presented these things to him with flushed cheeks and (in my mind, anyway) big sparkly eyes, he would accept them with a thank you, look at or play them briefly, and put them aside. In particular, I spent the months leading up to our first-year anniversary eagerly updating him on a secret anniversary project (a CD stuffed with art by myself and many other people, stories, and a short animation) that I devoted hours and hours to. At last, on the day, I gave it to him and.. received nothing but a thank you.
Well, I thought, it wasn't as if I should be expecting a gift anyway. I didn't want to be that kind of girl. And that in itself wasn't enough to spoil our great relationship, which continued for close to three years. Over time, I noticed more and more that he was less attentive, less appreciative, more impatient with any depression that might come over me (I had a lot of self esteem issues then, which he helped me come to terms with a great deal early in our relationship. However, as time wore on, he got tired of hearing anything like that, and I silently relapsed a bit).
The first glow of happiness, though it lasted much longer than usual, was unquestionably gone. However, I was far from miserable, and I believed still that we would go on to live out our lives together, and that speaking up about my discontent anymore would be to kill a relationship with much less issues than most. I chided myself for being so needy.
It was as the feeling was growing stronger, as my home life was becoming rougher, and as we began to argue increasingly.. that he appeared: the equivalent Night to my current boyfriend, Soshi.
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