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>>704562 You are SO amazing! I grew up rather lonely as well because I was the youngest of three children. My brothers are ten and eight years older than I am, so growing up, I hardly got to see them as they were out doing their own thing. My Dad worked so much I hardly felt close to him at all and my Mom...well, she tried her best, but she was always very critical. Everything had to be her way, or it was wrong and bad and there was no room for conversation about it. Plus, once I told her that I'm bisexual, things have been strained because she thinks it's horrible and gross. I always felt in inadaquite, small, and left behind. Plus, since I was the only girl, my father was very protective of me. Most of the time, I wasn't even allowed to go to a friends house or hang out with them. I kept quiet, for so long, bending to everyone's will, never being able to just be myself... I'm 20 now. I've been formally diagnosed with Panic Disorder, Anxiety, Depression, and OCD, and I can't seem to get rid of them. Meds help, but they only do so much. I can't even go to my college campus for classes, I have to do everything online. I can't drive because it's one of my triggers. I only have three friends outside of my family.
My lonely fantasy is to find a man like me, someone who wants to take care of me, won't preasure me when I'm afraid to do something, and will simply support me in all that I do. I dress different, I listen to music that isn't exactly mainstream or popular, I love anime, manga, comics, video games, books, music...basically anything art related...and I want to find someone who I can share my beautiful, perhaps sad world with. Maybe...maybe then I won't feel so alone. I want to be able to sit next to someone, without being afraid that they're going to leave me one day because of who I am, to feel so close to someone, I'll be able to hold them in my arms and feel comfortable. I just want to be loved unconditionally. Is that really so much to ask?
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