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Anonymous
I just took her outside and gave her some food, which she devoured like always. She came back in whining like she was last night and eventually wanted in my room, even though I wasn't in there. She tried to get comfortable on top of a pile of clothes but kept whining. She settles down if I sit by her and rub her stomach. I'm really hungry, but there's really nothing here to eat and I can't afford delivery, I'll have to get carryout real cheap somewhere, but I'd hate to leave her alone. She's calmed down some even though I stopped petting her, but I think she'd wig out if I left the room. But I ordered carryout and will probably be leaving soon to get it, it's only down the road, but still. I really want to do something for her now, but yesterday she had some terribly bloody stool. If she's having stomach issues and bleeding in her stomach, I'm sure painkillers of any variety will only make that worse, even if I had any available to me. It's so conflicting to see her be inbetween her normal self and miserable at the same time. She wags her tail, and will eat like a pig if you let her like always and still licks me, but... Her breathing is weird and she moans and howls and frantically paces around trying to lay down like she's in discomfort and can't stand it and then comes to me like I can do something about it; it's agonizing. I'm hoping we can get her seen sooner than tomorrow. I don't want either of us to have to deal with another night of this. I'm also hoping my mom will come see her for some time beforehand. She loves my mother to death, but doesn't get to see her much anymore. I really don't want that to be the only time she spends with her before the end...
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